this is.....life?

haiz..so what am i now?? halfway in between being this and that..

thought today wasnt bad....after a long day of pissifying school was over..i could finally get to meet my teammies..the winners in my life..the only ppl who nvr give up on me...the only ppl who can make me happy in the shortest possible time..i miss you guys so much..chionged to vivo after sch to meet kang and ji..lol.then we did sth extremely impt..anyway..had a real long talk with them..felt so.....good.lol.

to have to leave hwachong was bad...it was seriously my fault..haiz..look at my miserable self now..i got nothing at all..but the only thing i wont regret is o lvls..lol....ya sure..i didnt put in much effort..but who cares? i had fun....nono.i mean.i actually had a life..remember when i used to go out almost every single day..played bball almost everyday..laughed along and had fun with bballers almost everyday..they were great days..and sec school days were seriously my best days ever..

now..i still have a life..a saturday life..like kang...i live my life just to reach saturdays so that i can meet up with my teammates to have fun..rest of the time..i just pretty much live it cos i need to reach sat..

i dont regret doing badly for o lvls man..i seriously dont..i deserved it..hahah.sec school was great while it lasted..

bballers..teammates and friends for life..actually i realised that in our team....no one actually shares the same surname..for our batch luh i mean..except bert and jas...me and eddy got same chinese surname.but english also diff.i mean.this is way cool..all different surnames..all so unique..but..i love you guys all the same..we're the best.

and i will live to see saturday

ciao

i mean it.

this is it..this is it..

firstly..alot of ppl have been asking me.are you ok? whats wrong? blah blah blah..nth's wrong man..i say it best, when i say nothing at all..

you know..there are some things that..haiz..you just cant force...im so tired man...extremely...tired..reach limit alr la..totally cant take it..


kang is so right...not worth it at all..

for the people you care the most about..whats the right thing you should do?

we had results analysis today..yahh.i kinda know..my results are like shit..but..i dont really get it..why did i go to jc anyway? i dont see a point in studying..and going to jc means putting myself under stress that i have to do well and promote..oh come on...

is two-face two-face? or am i actually a two-face too? but im really what i am when im in hc..

i've alr given up hope alr..i cant change who you are..

but right.aj wil nvr make me a mugger..i have a life..and i plan to live it..and score at the same time..get owned man..get owned..

ciao

hell of a week

lol..the past week has been a mess..too busy for words..

monday tuesday wednesday thursday friday saturday..sian..everyday is the same..old freaking routine..why cant things change and give me a surprise instead.kk

summary..first four days were like shit..at least friday was quite fun hahaha.i brought my guitar to school.thinking i could go for guitar..like.wow..then end up cannt..and it was the noob's birthday! lol.happy birthday noob..damn dumb.went to buy cake for her.made me sweat like some idiot like that..just to cut cost..haha.dont need take bus to central ma..

saturday was super gay...just let me record down what we did can? we did approximately one round of the hill..except we did twice of slopes..then went down to the courts..usual routine..hahaha.free throws with runs..go die la..super tiring la..kns..i run until wanna die.but anyway..went on.blah blah.just kept running.until game time.didnt get to play b div..played among ourselves lo..then slacked off..did pt..went to run abit more..went to prince for lunch..but i packed from jing ji..hahah.then went to ps to watch dark night..only jas kang ric and sh were left..

anyway..although the movie cost a bomb..but it was really great yo.hahaha..i love the company.

haiz..good times bad times...can you guys still remember last year? how much fun we had together...i really miss hc like anything...i miss everything about hc..the canteen, the classrooms.the teachers..and..last but the most..my team..god damn it..i seriously miss you all like hell..although things change like shit alr..but you knw the kind of feeling i get when im with you guys?

its heavenly..try spending a week outside of hc by yourselves then suddenly come back as a team again.lol.you'll get that heavenly feeling..it rocks..if only sh would come to aj with me..then i wouldnt feel so lonely..any bballer will do..just give me one..and i'd be very contented alr..

not that im not adjusting to my new environment..i guess its fine..although i dont really see the joy in going to school..i go to school just to waste my days off so that saturday can come and i can meet you guys...

but it'll have to do for now..the new environment not bad la.but doesnt mean i'll forget you guys..

you guys own..hc..you guys own..

ciao

piano day

lol..today was seriously piano day..i think now fingers must be like..at least abit faster now...siao siao..break play piano..come home play piano.everything piano...kept trying to play the chopin etude improvisation by jay..rocks la.when i was playing in school...the piano in lt 2 didnt have pedals..so..it was even better.forcing me to train without pedal..hahah.when i got home and played on my piano.wow.it was great..

re-played scales again.i wanna improve..i wanna improve..anyway..homework for tmr almost all done la..so can slack go play piano alr..haiz..very tiring lo..i dont wanna lose..

cannt lose lo..you all say kiasu..but who not kiasu..dont knw how la..have to use better ways to catch up alr..

pe was fine today..i mean.we ran alot la.no doubt..but most of the time i was slacking away..running slowly..so no prob..pt i seriously cti alr..the sit up..siao.my muscle ache havent even over la.

lame la..maturity..zz..makes me wanna puke man..living in strawberry fields forever..

lets just wait and see..hahaha

it's not gonna work man..im going to say it now.it wont work..im determined this time..extremely..you can forget about it.

ciao

this weekend has been a blur..

saturday morning started off with training at hc..hmm..was tiring for me...out of practice for too too too too long..went to jing ji for lunch then towned..haha.initial d 4 was great..after that we went to ec's hse.siao..was that fun man

highlight came when ec's dad offered us wine..wthhh..i havent drank like for.1 mth ++..but hor..the wine was really great la..too great for me to resist.siaooo..red wine.great wine!

left for home after a great dinner..thanks ec and family..siao..hospitality!

slacked away sunday as usual..going to tuition then met jason in tp..watched golden army.lol.not bad la..after that came home..and did all those hw till now.abit tired alr..i can hardly focus anymore.i should sleep.

so where does that leave us? where are we now? what are we doing? how are we going to carry on? i think.im just gonna forget it...cos..its just not gonna work..and..im gonna end up dead.

ciao.

it has been a long time yo.

the weekends were..so great...you wouldn't imagine how great it was..wow..friday saturday sunday..sunday and monday yo.

friday..i was very tired after school..went home to get a nap.thought was going out with the class.but ended up they all go home de go home, cca de cca..so i watched tv lo..then in the evening dad said he was going to teckwhye for some comp lesson..so i thought might as well go with him, got car ma..phoned up ec and i got myself a dinner partner =) ec rocks! went to bpp for dinner..then while i waited for dad's class to end, went to slack at bp library..borrowed 2 books.not bad la! i was super looking forward to saturday, so it was a great night! learnt how to fold a rabbit.

saturday morning..woke up super super super early to go for CIP at clementi..zz..we got scammed..or rather they got scammed too..they thought lessons were at 8 for the past 2 weeks..but we only went this week..and we went at 9..so gg..no students save for some kind souls who were nice enough to listen to learn some stuff at all..after that, ec kang me went to queens trying to find a jersey for the team.but to no avail..zz..then went into town lo.it was raining like mad la.kang went off for his og outing.ec and me..sian diao..went to wheelock, sakae no buffet..so went to find kang at cine..in the end jason joined us..then we went for suki buffet..siao..super shuang..hahaha.and jihao came in to eat too..for free..

wahh.after this then really shuang..siao diao..kang left his og..then sh and ji came along..then we went to sing k..OH NICE ONE!!! then hs and dx came..ec and ji left..but was super fun man..hong jin tao..hai2 ji4 de2 wo3 ma1?? we got so high..siao..SOOOOO high..sian.then went for dinner at taka while we discussed bball matters...until super late..went home with jason..same way as we always did..mrt to tp.bus home

SUNDAY..training in the morning.tired like shit..fitness dropped like anything..anyway..after training went out in the afternoon to ps area..played initial d.wah super fun man siao siao..tzin sh jason me..sunday night same thing again..went home same way.hahah.not alot to say..but it was really quite fun

monday was so good..today la...slacked away the morning..then afternoon went to town meet ji and jason..LOL!!! YAMAHA!!! we played the keyboards and got a little carried away when we decided to do a remix of da bei zhou! i was so highhhhhhhhh..siam siam siam siam siam siam siam siam..eh ti tao gong li gou di dak lang ah!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!! the ppl thought we siao.then played initial d again..super shuang..after ji left.we went to cine to watch wanted..SAW SWEE HOMEY WITH his wife uhhh..uhhh.swee homey.not bad seh..wanted sia..went home same way again..

im really glad we're here again..lets get the fighting spirit back..

haizz..but at the end of these 3 days..im back to nothing again..no more he yi si..no more teammates..no more..back to school..

ciao

you're already the voice inside my head

this week has been shit..i cannt sleep i cannt dream every night.zzz..

anyway..has been uneventful..except that i passed one subject.failed one subject.sub passed one subject..haiz..

yesterday wasnt that bad..went to kap to meet kronky and lu gou after school..learnt how to fold a dog..like.wow...then lu gou left for home while kronky and i went for dinner at coro..after dinner..we did something really dumb.which was switching handphones..im still with kronky's phone now..sian..i miss the slide la.nvm..meeting him tmr.

today wasnt too bad.ended school at 12.00...a physics level 8 practical brought my spirits up abit..went home slacked abit..slept awhile.played some piano..asked ec out for dinner..that was the best thing i could have done man..seriously

since daddy had to go to teck whye for some course, he took me along in the car and dropped me off at phoenix..then i took a bus to lot 1..that was redundant la..cos we decided to eat at bpp in the end..walked arnd after dinner abit...went to the library.omg..the library.like.wow...borrowed 2 books.thanks ec..but when we left library, it was hardly 9..my dad ended lessons at 9.45..so i had to wait lo..and bpp doesnt really allow me to walk around for 45 mins++..esp since i go there quite alot..so no choice, go kfc read my books lo.

just got home..and learnt how to fold a rabbit..now i know the rabbit and the dog.cip time tmr..if the class not gonna have SL, im definitely not gonna just stone and wait for death man..

haiz..sian..hopefully tmr got team outing..i need some support...and...hopefully we're going for the tournament as a team..i really hope to play as a team again la...i enjoy playing bball so so much..

ok..time to go..gotta wake up early..zzz.clementi time tmr..abit far k

ciao

Dedicated to the number 14