this is life

today...was a great day.lol.

i woke up..then went back to school to play bball with my beloved teammates.lol..

fitness dropped like anything la.hahah.really cannt compare to last time alr..thanks to jeremy for teaching me stuff..i mean..its not everyday you have such a nice senior who teaches you something when he just meets you for the first time..

hahaha.sat arnd hc courts talking crap..bathed and set off to our hangout..bukit timah hawker.lol.great place yeah..holds lots of memories for me..anyway..had lunch and waited for ec to come then went to his house lo..hahaha

what happened was..we rushed to the vodka immediately after we entered the house..which was quite gayish..haha..sat down and started drinking..ok..between the four or five of us..we finished quite abit.it felt great lahh..i mean.everyone was high and happy..it was super gay.hahah.then ppl started getting wasted..*coughs* who ah?? *winks at dx* lol..it was great though..they mainly played xbox while i was playing the piano -.- just kept drinking and drinking la..didnt feel bad until i was on the way home..got abit nauseous..but cos i had worse experiences, it wasnt too bad la..i mean..it was just a nauseous feeling lo..after awhile nothing alr.but i feel abit..tired now la..and i can still feel the vodka in my mouth..abit strong ah..

i remember..the last time we all had vodka in ec's house, i was still in hc..and we were all happy kids..haiz..i should never have slacked..shld nvr have left..i know all the time, how much you guys mean to me..every single teammate i had since sec 2..you all mean alot alot to me...everything we went through together.haiz..why'd it have to end like that..

i want to keep all those memories..they are..sweet..and i hope that this will carry on..i mean, the way we're meeting up even though we have split up.even within hc, you guys have split up into your own ways..not everybody sees everybody everyday anymore..zz..and that feeling.is shit..i love my teammates..im mean it..they mean so much to me..we never said that we were best friends..i mean.other than a few of us telling each other...we never said in a group that the bball teammates were our best friends, but....its apparent isnt it? that we ARE best friends..the best.of the best.like...we didnt even say it out la..thats why its so real..when i need help..who are the first ppl i think of?? team of '05 to '07..no matter how much i try, i cannot and will not ever forget you guys..

we make no concious effort to stay together..we dont force ourselves to message each other everyday...but when we miss each other, we always gather..and we always..always have fun..thats what a team is for.best thing is this..no matter who betrays who or whatever..actually..we dont really have this kind of things in our team la..but even if it does happen..pls..its hurting, but it wont last for long..because one party will apologise..and everything will be back to normal..thats a team..thats true friendship..and thats....hc..that is hc..bonds that will not break..i didnt predict wrongly..i didnt join the wrong team..yeah so what we never won? we can raise our heads up high..because we are a team..and we have fought..

hahhhahah.know what? actually the thing i hate alot is getting betrayed, not knowing i got betrayed..and not knowing who stabbed me in the back with the sharp knife...bt its always worse, when you find out that you got stabbed..and the identity of the person who stabbed you.lol =) then again..sometimes the question is not who stabbed you..is..do you deserve to be stabbed.lol.

we have a long way ahead of us..lets walk down this path together guys..i seriously appreciate all of you..for being behind me when i needed help..like..you guys are probably the only few ppl who are really supporting me no matter what my problem is...and that really helps alot..it comforts me..really..really..lets go buy our team bag..and print a team T...we gonna own..hahaha

true friends dont come by easily..lol.these are guys who actually know me, know who i am, know what i like to do, know what i dont like, know my habits..and i know the same things about them..this is a team..YEAH MAN!

oh come on..pull the bloody knife out for me guys and apply some ointment please..hahaha.i dont give a damn if there'll be a scar..i just hope that i'll always be wearing a shirt =)

so what if you DO know everything? so what if you're actually smart at all? dont be too cocky..it can be your downfall..hahahah..moral of the story..stay alert at all times..and dont.ever.ever.ever.ever.ever leave your teammates.because they'll be the ones who help you shield the knife..they'll be the ones who remove the knife for you in case it cant be stopped..they're the ones who will heal your wounds..love your teammates..have fun.

ciao

angels or devils?

lol..the song is a great song..hahaha..today morning..i spent the whole morning watching the real 300..hahaha.quite nice..then afternoon spent watching stephen chow..super nice...played abit of piano before leaving for tuition..came back..played more piano.went to buy dinner..slacked till now.

crazy..im like getting so involved in music la..hahahaha.

im trying to train up the biceps..i wanna get silver...sian la..i mean..all the other stations all settled alr..only left this shit..zzpullup pullup..where got last year do 3 now do 0 de..cannt be..i must train damn hard.

dont look back..

说好了要走就要走。。离开就离开。。。没有回头，不留遗憾，不能后悔。前方，是绝路。。希望却在前方。。看到绝路未必得走转角。。看到一堵墙，就把墙打垮。。看到泛滥的河水，敢敢地游过去。游过去之后，以前的事情将变成回忆。。无论是美丽获痛苦的回忆，都别再翻了。。勇往直前，自强不息。不管听见什么，都别再回头了。。意志要坚定。

做人重要的是坦诚相待他人。以免他人以其人之道还治其人之身。我了解这个理由了。还好我到底还是醒了。老妈，我以后不敢玩火了。。

真是发人深省喔。。哈哈哈哈。我做梦，做恶梦，做白日梦，做什么梦都没想到哩。。该反省一下了！

再见

hahahah.the past week has been like..wow.sunday esplanade concert rocked the shit.monday no school..what did i do..hmm...cant remember..dont think i did much.hahah.yeah.nothing.then tuesday was cool.school.then wednesday....was great.concert debrief, goodbye seniors..then.went home..had a rest..then went to ec's house..omg..overnight soccer game..and whiskey.lol =)

then after that..thursday woke up..went to school for awhile..went home..slept till it was time for finals..then went to watch bball finals..HC WON!! omg.congrats marc!! you rock! then friday had gp exam.i studied a little la...read media reading package..but prob is.i didnt do media question.hahah..anyway.the hols are here..yeah yeah yeah man!

hahahaha..i finally understand alr..finally..finally.

HERE I GO! SCREAM MY LUNGS OUT AND TRY TO GET TO YOU! lol

im so happy im so happy im so happy man.

next week gonna be fun..full of mugging and balling activities..wow!

omg..esplanade rocked..i just realised we made history! like...omg

ciao

concert rocked like anything..omg.the feeling was..great...

thinking back..if i hadnt met the gan when i was talking to fts, i wldnt be where i am now..happy in my class..omg....its so..great.its fate lah...YES! WE DID IT! TO A VERY NEAR SOLD OUT CROWD!!! thats the reason we train on mondays wednesdays thursdays and saturdays and public holidays..this is why..omg!! this is why we go home at 8+ or even 9..this is the reason why we bust our asses on public holidays to practise..this ROCKS! this is music..omg.its not about achievements..its not about your sgc..its not even freaking about anything else..when you're on that stage..showing the world the fruit of your labour.that...is..something.the feeling equals playing on court..it just rocks..i promise from now on, i dont wanna be someone who just trains because he has to go for practice or sth..i wanna be someone useful..i dont wanna be a person who trains for sgc..or anything..i dont care if i dont have any achievements..i love this...its so overwhelming..

esp encore..wow.....i dont care if i dont go to prague or italy or even syf...because i dont care..i love singing.

thanks for the support once again guys..and calv and alv and justin for going to dinner with me after that..lol.thanks for coming too, the rest of you..you guys really mean alot...to take out that hour or 2 to come and watch us perform..even as you guys have pw due tmr...chinese mid years on thurs and gp mid years on friday..wow..jiayou everybody..we better all ace the tests..thanks!!!! =) thanks..thanks..thanks!!!!!!

i'll remember what you said laoda...dont worry..i wont let you down.

lets show them we got the balls.

ciao

i wont give in.....

lol..let me tell you..that doesnt mean anything..it doesnt show that my talent or potential is any less than yours..lets wait and see..i'll show you...one fine day.dont show that diao look on your face.

music is not about grading..its about feeling and passion...i do music not for any achievements...i dont mind if at the end of two years my testimonial sucks..actually i dont see the point of testimonials..its pretty pointless..i dont care..as long as i find joy in music..i wont mind..haha

anyway..good job for college day guys..tmr concert yeah...lets just do it well..its a near sellout concert..lets do our very best.own the crowd..rule the theater..as long as we all sing out the best we can la..k? =)

bye

retarded

lol..well..what can i say..im not really unhappy about it or what..but its just disappointing lo.yeah.like..after all..its not like i didnt put in effort..hahah..doesnt matter...we can always try again..

passed my 2.4...the results not exactly good la..actually..its rather shitty..its really rather shitty.hahaha.nver mind luh..i gave up on this year anyway..next year then get lo..start training now.by next year i'll be in condition to at least get silver..but super tired now..today was really...yesterday..i mean..i slept at 2 today.woke at 5.30..then it was lessons all the way...and choir till now..like..not now la.but after i bathe eat blah blah blah..im here..ready to die for spa tmr..im not gonna study for it la..

this is life...sometimes you just gotta pay for what you did.lol.

lol..alot of funny things happened today...alleviated some of my stress la..was feeling super f-ed up when i woke up at 5+ was lke..ready to kill...bloodshot eyes..emotionally tired..and didnt feel like giving a damn......

the absolutely gorgeous one..hahahah.wth..great term.

its great to have ppl arnd you supporting you when you're down..but sometimes..you need to support yourself..and im too tired to support myself now..im crumbling into pieces..god damn shit..thanks for the support.you guys..are the best people i can ask for...im so glad god decided to give me you guys as friends..its like..siao.thank god.thank god..there can always be better ppl out there no doubt..but im super satisfied with the friends i have now..to me..you are the best! rock on guys...

mind the grammar.lol...the last thing i'd wanna sound like is some cheem english speaker wannabe.and failing badly because i have a grammatical error in my sentence..but neh mind la..singlish la..nothing wrong sia..its our language..use it wisely ma! yeah!

loll.you just wait..you just wait......wait....thanks for the inspirational talks.all my laodas..i know you guys trying to motivate me..normally, i wld resist it.because i hate doing what others tell me to do...but..now i wanna be motivated..

dont worry..i'll be just fine.hahahah!

byebye

here there and everywhere

knowing that love is to share...each one believing that love never dies, watching her eyes, and hoping im always there.i will be here...there and everywhere...here there and everywhere! macca rocks!

omg wanderlust is such a nice song...light out wanderlust..

yesterday was such a tiring day.omg.it was super siao..2 full dress rehearsals.have to chiong to change also..i hope its worth it.haha.zz.next sat college day..

hmm..these few days i havent been able to concentrate well due to the lack of sleep..zz..cant stand it man.

its this time of the year again..just like last year and the year before..haha.you know? i predict something and i dont really expect it to happen..as in.i predict sth..but i hope it doesnt come true...and yet somewhere deep inside me i know it will..aiya..very hard to describe..its just feel la.hahaha.nvm about that..anyway.

haizz..sian de.still got idiots trying to do dumb stuff..

all we can do..is do our best lo..jiayou.

wheee..real tired..but it was worth it.hahah.

is it just me? hahaha.or was it quite fun after all?

its not easy to do things like that....but i took the first step i guess..something inside me pulled me deep beneath the surface..i felt like...a totally different person.until the vulgarities started coming in and spoiled the day again.lol

nvm..must just enjoy the rest of my days also..kk..

byebye

hahah.well..today was great.1 and a half hrs free after sch started..all the way.haha.the rest of the day went pretty smooth..

it gave me alot of time to rethink about life as the higher chinese gang were hanging arnd the piano in lt2..hahah.the echo pedal got problem..but anyway.the thing is...tmr is gonna rock.but i got a hell lot of scores to mug..and a econs test to study for..gpp of course..after handing in 3 drafts in 4 days wtf...good job guys.lets go! jiayou..dont give up.ever..

sometimes..you just gotta learn to do some stuff..hahaha.im taking my first step..lets do our best.

learn to smile..

i will not forget what i set out to be...im still working on my goal...yeah..hc spirit.pls bless me.

lol..really..i shall be a happy man.

ciao

get well soon!

ewww..today wasnt too good.but tmr is great.we have 5 stations =)) and physics lecture..and that marks the end of the day!! then got learning journey..no college day rehearsal..

thursday not bad i think..but got physics makeup..then have to stay back till super late for practice..but i guess its worth it! lets make this a huge success..i've always thought leh..if you dont wanna do sth, then dont do it at all..if you need to do sth, or you want to, then do it to the best..BEST.BEST.not sure if i'll qualify for the competitions we're participating in next year, so this is probably my one and only performance..yeah i knw its pathetic..but i'll do my best.lets go yeah!

failed math! =) hahah.no sweat..im going for consulation tmr..hahaha.my results curve can only have a positive gradient..no fear man!

econs test next tues! after that, left gp then hols! then its mugging time for mid years..omg i cant freaking wait ok..i mean...cant wait for midyears..not the hols.imagine mugging for mid years..i cant imagine the fun of having lots of time and just mugging it away..nvr tried it.hahaha

concert 18th may..after that..its study time yeah!

been training for secret alot nowadays..trying to get all the notes correct...i wanna play the song super well..and super fast..and super nice..i want to be a good pianist..and a proficient guitarist..and an average singer.

okokok...its gonna be really fun yeah!

anyway..yeah.get well soon gwee, the ms universe 2010! =)

its 6 in the morning..lol.6.30 actually...my sleep has made me realise alot.hahahaha..kk

gotta go school alr..i wasted my yesterday away.guess who hasnt studied for chem test? =)

remember to let her into your heart, then you can start to make it better! YEAH!

hahaha.18th may concert.lets pia for this..yeah heh eh heh!

ya ya..gotta go alr.this week is a really cool week!

ps. thanks everybody..those who pulled me through.god bless you ppl.

is there any use in being down at all?? hahaha.i dont think it even matters..forget it.

im looking forward to school tmr..

goodbye

Dedicated to the number 14