i had a great day

yeah right..

dream on guys.

byebye

havent done that in awhile

what the hell..i cant stand this..

havent cried like shit in a long while..im sorry.

wanderlust..what a wrong song to listen to now..im sorry paul..the mood is wrong.

we started out saying all 4 of us wanted to go aj together..ended up.1 made it..1 made it through appeal..in the end..left me alone in aj...it feels wrong.

i'll miss you..take care girls.

light out wanderlust..help us to be free..

i was just overwhelmed ok...i didnt expect to cry..it just came and i didnt feel like controlling it.then once it started it cldnt end..it pains me to think about it...i cant believe that happened.

2 years leh..2 years....come on.

god give me strength please..i havent been so weak in awhile.

if i knew this would happen, would i have stayed? 1 whole week of shitting blood..ending up in disappointment..well..im in aj now.personal mission accomplished.but im nt happy.

i think i wld have...no matter how much i didnt like it.

ciao

remember to let her into your heart

take a sad song and make it better...

hah..you're joking.better..im using trump alr tomorrow.this is it..all the way.

hey jude.hey jude.hey jude

zz..

bye

if only i had the strength you'd be completely accepting something else

it has been an eventful week.i guess..hahahah.

monday was cool..didnt go to school on tuesday.no one wld believe me reason.well..i was gonna pon anyway..but that thing happened..and.just nice lo!! wednesday..went to school as usual.uneventful.except for the coincidence! thursday.val's day..wah.thanks for all the presents.i feel so bad..hahahaha.friday.rocked.

friday.wasnt fun leh.i mean.school wasnt fun.the fun thing was going back to hc..its the place where im just another hc..saw so many ballers.i use nick la..in case some of you dont want to be named.lOL! polar bear and penguin, the ji, strong, kangkang, eddy, ricky, moley (but he didnt see me), wang (aiiiiya!), gys, ye ye, lao niu.forgot whether still got..dont think so..omg i love them so much! hahahaha.too bad i didnt see everyone.ah lu!! daniel!! big salty!! hahhaha.and of course.theres one guy i wldnt see no matter how many times i go..sh.zz..i guess we wont be seeing much of him luh..

haahaha.random abit.其实，我们四巳班的同学，智商都不低嘛，就不过是懒了一点嘛!! 不是,应该说是非常非常懒..记得以前韩老师说的话吗?他说,你们又烂又懒...烂, 是因为懒..哈哈哈哈

deceivingly fast..i love that term!

ciao

finally, im letting go of all my downer thoughts

wah..super tired..can barely keep my freaking eyes open..today was gay.

i woke up at 7..felt really dumb..so i thought i might take a small nap till 7.30, then head for school to play bball..ended up waking up at 8.15...chionged to school.played a match with alumni..went to jihao's house..stayed awhile..took some food.went to town.left town went to mrs tay's house.ate dinner, slacked.had 2 mouths of diluted vodka.came home.haha.not bad la

damn it man.i injured my freaking left foot.it didnt hurt this much before la..i shld change shoes man..now i knw how it feels like to play bball with a smaller sized shoe..zz

im listening to blind.lol..not a bad song.i mean..ya.i knew it long ago.but relistening to it over and over again.its not bad man.hahahah.

ok man..today was quite bad.50 situps first then sleep la.i guess..zz.ahhh.i havent practised the piano.damn..zzz.ehhhh..sian leh sian leh.ahhh.eh.i forgot what i wanted to say alr leh.

鸡蛋啊，太笨了。。啊！！烦啊！真真假假，假假真真。。我怎么知道什么是真的？超笨的。真得不知道啦。我也该开始戒骗。。不断地骗人，令我自己不断怀疑大家。实在太烦了。。不知道大家是否是说实话，还是骗人的技术太高超。好烦啊。我是不爽的。。非常不爽。本来今晚不像回来了。。直接在南四家过夜。谁知道，母亲坚决不肯让我过夜，硬硬要我回家耶。。没办法啦。。咳。我是怎么了。。以前，骗人或敷衍人都不眨眼的。现在，我骗人还会惭愧喔！烦啊。。我变了不少啊。。感觉上好像是变好了。我想看自己有多久不用说慌。。每一个谎言都需要更多谎言来掩饰。。我好累啊。。骗人骗到累了。。不行了。

再见

then you begin, to make it better!

yeahh..im back from msia..rather crazy.

yesterday had concert in school.like wth? ok.it was just performances.not bad la.i mean...let it be! too bad they didnt sound like paul..odac song..wah..super nice.then.after that.wah..damn dumb..ji dan gao..

went to malaysia anyway..just as always..hahaha.it was great..

im smarter than that man..hahahaha.really..im not kidding.

ciao

then you begin, to make it better!

words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup..

what to do now? hahhahaha.maybe i shld talk abit abt yesterday

well.it was great waking up at 7 to go play bball in hc.wow..like.back to the old days.lol! i loved it.hahaha..hmm.very few seniors turned up.only 6 of us i think.yuck.but it was fun la.even though i cldnt really play anymore..the effects of not training.hahaha.every action has a consequence.doesnt matter..re-train lo.hahaha

i dont wanna train on cj court.anyway theres no time to train there man..they got training, pe blah blah blah..only 2 courts.how to train?? haha.but i gotta train.its the only thing i have left.oh!! theres chem test tmr!! i've got a question for everybody..guess whos not going to study for the test?? =P

oh!! thank you joanne!! sorry i could only pay $10..hahaha.i'll pay you back the next time i see you! thanks alot alot alot alot alot.haha =) lets have games night soon lehh..i wanna play..zz.

cny's coming..its so unreal.haha

是不是缘？有没有份？无从回答， 无从追问。。多久才算无怨无恨？沉默的夜好伤人。。为爱狂奔，为情所困，最怕痴心枉费一生。。有爱无缘，有情无份，难分难舍。。都是旧伤新痕。爱的旧伤能不能不再心疼？如果无怨无尤会不会再添新痕？这样一颗心反反覆覆热与冷，随着人海浮浮沉沉。。也许爱过的人总要带一些伤痕？是否幸福的路难免有一些坎坷？如果这一切都是过程，该不该等？

痛过的心，爱过的人。。有时不如孑然一身。梦是一道寂寞的门，旧伤新越陷越深。。

yesterday stretched on for so long, tomorrow feels like forever..it was a promise of summer.we sealed it with a kiss..this time i'll do things proper.how did it get to this?

lets have bball gathering soon..if we want to gather at ppl's hse i think best choices are ec, eddy or ricky..or....we cld go to school to play ball..then town lo! i hope ec doesnt have too much vodka at home.hahahah.bad for health man.

theres school tmr.eew.

ciao

hahahah.i miss the place so much..big and comfortable.lol.

sian la..i dont even wanna study for chem test.like wth?? yuck.study for what man..i dont want to study.i dont even wanna play anymore bball for a few days.hahha.i just wanna slack and do some quiet thinking.yeahh..thinking helps alot.it calms me down.lets me think of several possibilities..it makes me more aware of the things happening around me..

do some thinking la.hahaha.it helps alot.

And this is not the time or place for us to speak like this And if I had the thought I'd never dream of it So dry your hollow eyes and lets go down to the water

haiz..maybe im amazed.im just tired i guess..ppl get tired..and im tired la..very.really.very..how long can i hold on.i wonder...i'll be just fine pretending im not, im far from lonely and its all that i've got..

i seriously need to get some sleep man.

ciao

Dedicated to the number 14