first day of school officially

lessons start alr..it isnt that bad lahh..hahah.not worth killing yourself over this kinda things hahah..well..super tired..

just last night as i was ready to go to bed..i decided to ask about the topics which were to be covered in chem today..and i realised i didnt do gp..so chiong lo..then didnt sleep much although i didnt watch euro..like..everyone was up to watch euro.i was up doing hw..zz..4 newspaper articles.haha

anyway..i passed gp..thank god.really..thank god.yeahhh.tmr is a rather slack day..econs and math and gp and pw only.hope i'll have fun.

off to play piano soon.

dont knw what to say anymore.

feels like the first day

byebye

today..

what the hell..im like.so dead for econs..its SO dead..my case study anyhow do..essay anyhow do..tmr got chem and yet im still slackin.hahaha.i heck care alr la..kill me.tmr math consultation..i dont even knw ANYTHING how to consult..its totally i need lecture la..not consultation..

lol..i walked home after taking bus with lao chen today..hahaha.it was a great walk..gave me..around 20 mins of time to rethink what i wanna do..yeah...did i really look very stressed??? =(

haiz.i think in the short span of a few days..i changed alot..and i think its because of something someone told me...yeahh.but its not your fault lahh..im just sad that things turned out..this....way?

anyway..i've been playing lots of piano these few days..i think it helps me think properly..what do i really want? what was i really thinking? was i being serious at all? is it what it seems like?

next term cannt slack anymore..zz..slack anymore and thats the end of me..its not only the end of me..i'll do one more year..zz.i dont wanna do one more year..i dont want to..i must clear this year..must.furthermore..i cannt let myself down.

hmm..yeahh..i've concluded that.things have changed.alot.quite alot..tmr will be a better day? lol.it only gets worse man..

running away

what if i told you that i couldn't be there for you anymore?
what if...things happen in a really unexcpected way?
what if it is true that i really changed alot in these mere few days?
will you run away?

today was great.woke up at 9..met kronky at coro 12 noon..photocopied enthalpy..left for kap to MUG..i mean.like.really..we finally mugged..finished WEP, measurements, kinematics tutorial.75% through forces..but i just cant do dynamics la..because its confusing me.i mean..resolve vectors than resolve la.dont need make it so complicated right? gosh..

past 2 days, i've been mugging..believe it or not..i feel that everytime i try to mug, i get into a whole new level..im mugging much more than o lvl period now.lol.不断超越自己，不断进步。。
thing is..i'll still fail.no joke.

the only things that keeps me going when i feel like doing sth else.
1. i want to promote, together with my teammates ***
2. i want to do hc proud
3. i dont want to be despised
4. i want to make my mom proud for the first time in her life
5. i dont want to be the old slacky me, i know i've changed, and i want to be a new person..i want to leave the laziness behind..i know i've changed.thats what im thinking..in my mind all the time, when i want to put the notes down, when i feel like putting the pen down..i just think of these, and i'll go on
6. i've had enough of failing tests

well..i probably cant pass mid years..but i'll continue working hard no doubt..get all my concepts clear..do tutorials..hmm.im not that sure.lol..

anyway..my shoes were stolen..shit man.SHIT..now i gotta wear air max to sch..i hate wearing air max to school.firstly, the occasion is not fit for the shoes.secondly, its a tight fit..zzz..then because of mid years i havent been able to buy new shoes..i think thursday i shall go to queensway and buy a pair of adidas superstar..low cut.bball shoes, fit for school.just nice.air max too royal.lol!

went for my haircut..told the barber specifically not to shave my sideburn..hahahah.im going to keep it..remember sec 4? hahahhaa.i want THAT kind of sideburn..the zai kind.like goat like that one.

hahhahah.had enough fun.time to study again.haiz..sorta gave up on econs alr.

things change fast..grab hold of as much as you can..let the rest be beautiful memories..forever in your heart.

have fun.

yeah

wow..what a day..today was really long..

firstly i woke up and had breakfast..then i had to go to school to submit hw for the boss...then came home..took the bike..left for esso to pump up the tires..and went to eddy's house to study..and.....i really did study..im like..so proud of myself la...the first time i actually studied..i accomplished more today than i did in the whole hols put tgt man..so now chem bonding rather done..energetics rather done..physics quite done..math heckcare..econs heckcare..so my only 2 subjects as long as pass i laugh le..

i did wep at eddy's hse today..touched on a little kinematics..left measurement not sure only..once i settle..i happy alr..

now i just wanna revisit a few old songs..has been a tiring day for me today la..wth...cycle here cycle there..hahaha

kk..got nth much to say..except that.....

i guess...haiz...

ciao

back to this: "all that i've got"

today..was the dumbest day ever..went back to home no.2 to get notes from krongy..left for coro with krongy..went to golden rooster with krongy..drank chocolate milkshake while krongy ate his rice..went ntuc with krongy..went home alone..lol..

slacked at home..trying to play the piano..not many new inspirations la..cant come up with anything interesting except playing from scores...still fine tuning the jay chou dou qin songs..haiz..very strenuous leh..super hard la.anyway..we had ig outing today..6 ppl turned up.hahaha.rather cool huh..it was rather fun luh really.hahha.but..that was my fourth carl's junior visit within 2 weeks.omg.i feel like puking alr..i dont wanna eat that stuff...see la..now i gotta go running tmr.zz..

tmr gp project in the morning..lunch..probably go to bishan get some notes from eddy..then go boonlay get notes from laozhang..finish notes then study arnd there...till mommy and daddy brings little bros to play chinese chess..eat dinner with them..go home in a car..sounds tempting..i think thats the way tmr shall go..for now i must study chemistry..today was too much fun..this cant go on.i need to pass at least 2 subjects.

aiya..zzzzzzz..i go sing guan huai fang shi la..sian diao..sing something interesting to make my day.if i can start learning and finish learning bonding by 1 am..i'll be a free man..cos that leaves me with energetics and physics only..hahaha..

hi math..ya see ma face? it says..get lost. -.- why would the sch wanna force ppl to take math man..i mean..ewww..i hated playing with those numbers ever since my mum told me that math was an easy subject and that she aced it..ewww.like..wheres the fun in math man..gross...

ok..enough about academics.hahah.on to life as a whole..i dont knw what to say..im quite a failure..

and i miss you the most...and i.............need you the most..

hols gonna be over soon..when its over..its a long way till hc gathering again..haha.must treasure the times..i love hc.

bye

lol

from tmr..im going to make myself think that today is the last day of hols and that i have mid yrs tmr so as to make myself study..lol.lame la.

yesterday was great..great like anything.hahahha.woke at arnd 5.20 to rush to clementi for cip..climbed bukit timah hill with aged ppl who were members at a home..omg.those aged ppl..i dont knw wanna call them uncle aunty or call da ge da jie man..they super energetic and high..totally not what you'd expect of aged ppl..it was great =) i wanna do it again.those ppl rock.and so do my teammates =)))

today..i went to boon lay to support my bros in chinese chess..guess they didnt do extremely well..but what can i expect? they're sec 1s playing in open category.lol..my bros rock too! went to JP with my mum and got new shirts.hahah.nt bad..

yeahhhh..gotta start mugging..zzz.i need eddy to save me..i realised i dont knw ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT of things..i just wanna pass man..

havent been playing alot of piano/guitar..havent been singing alot..hahaha.not very in touch with music..havent been playing alot of bball either..hahah.not in touch with sports..but i run quite alot nowadays =)

yepp yepp..this hols..has really been ec's hse all the way..we ton-ed twice..went several times..hahah.even know his brothers alr la..then its like..i think its really put me back in touch with the team..in pae..it was almost as if i wasnt in singapore alr.totally didnt go out with bballers alot..nvm..im back now..

for this hols..i wanna learn new songs..i learnt only one, yesterday, still got alot la.but i cant remember.lol.

well..the family went out again..for part 2 of chess competition..i didnt wanna go since i cant pick up notes and i feel like practising piano.hahah

i'll see if i can mug tmr before outing.

im not ready yet..i guess....it just doesnt feel right.lol

ciao

that was....a blast

omg...thursday was a great great day..hahahaha



as usual..only ec was early..12noon meeting time..guess who showed up at 6pm? *coughs**dx**coughs* anyway..11 ppl showed up..last of the 11-dx to show up was arnd 2...we ended up reaching sentosa arnd 3+ when meeting time was 12... -.- anyway..we had alot..alot..alot.of fun..$4 per person we had so much fun..thats so cool.

hahah.soccer first..then slack..then softball wth! lol..ric and his cool ideas..like wth..the stick became a bat..and the soccer/volleyball became the softball..cool man..anyway..it was a really cool cool outing omg..cant be bothered to upload the photos now la..really quite tired now.today was a really long day..

lol...today..was...really gay.hahaha..but i feel so tired.

tmr got cip early in the morning..wth..tired man.

gotta sleep soon.

ciao

its been a long time

k...shall blog from last friday...

friday:
morning went to jess's house to slack with the class..or rather.it was just the few of us again..was planning to go for guitar la.but...yahh..you know...the ballers called and yeahhh..ballers > guitar..so went to town to watch kungfu panda(wth) with the team..it was super funny.really..super..then just went home..hahahah.but it was a great day.BUT..when my bus passed by rgs..woahh..super long day.stupid sister just had to be there..hahaha.so went amk to slack for awhile with her lo..went home after that lo..it was super great day =)

saturday:
hahahha.had plans to visit ade and jin kee at vivo for the poverty thing.hahah.but i ended up going for tuition makeup at bishan first..WHAT THE HELL.lol.mr lee.SF was there.hahahaha.woooh..crapped abit..after tuition chionged to vivo to meet the kng, hs and dx..

well..ya see..the last time i went to vivo i stood at that spot, or somewhere arnd there..and there wasnt a freaking subway...then suddenly..the subway was there..wth? kns..anyway...lol..that was one free dinner for me and hs..thanks dx..thanks like alot..for the cookies and the sandwich and the drinks and...yeah.everything.LOL! spent the rest of the time trying to find ade and jin kee.

finally found them..said my his and we left for dinner no.2...went to bk..MET MY SISTER..like wth..and then we decided carl's junior thrashes bk..so we went carl's junior..and sat our asses there from arnd (8-9) to about 11.20..yeah..then left for home from there.with my sister..and...ade and jin kee were alr at west coast..lol.

GREAT GREAT GREAT DAY..super good..except we didnt take many photos..but it was fun nevertheless..formulated plans to go to sentosa.

sunday:
super useless..i dont even want to talk about it.

monday:
ROCKER DAY THIS WAS..OMG OMG OMG..so last min..met mark in sch at arnd 10am to "mug"..ended up doing arnd 3 questions and met ec..THEN we impromptu ask to go his hse..SETTLED..STAYOVER OMG!!! called dx and sh over also..

slacked at his hse with harold and kumar and blah blah blah..thanks for dinner ec..thanks for everything..and...also the scotch..lol.it was great..esp with ice..hahahah! halfway through the "ghost" movie..we called macs.like omg..cos we watched H and K go to white castle..we were craving for burgers too..two double cheeseburgers for all of us except sze han who had 3..dx bought a meal..OMG it was great..fell asleep during meet the spartans...woke up after ec's parents left for work..f breakfast..who cares.lol..then we just played NBA ALL THE WAY TILL LUNCH YEAH BABY YEAH BABY YEAH BABY YEAH BABY YEAH BABY YEAH BABY YEAH BABY YEAH BABY YEAH BABY YEAHHHHHHHH..left after lunch..but...sentosa rather formulated..ITS TMR..OMGOMGOMG>.its tmr..but first

tuesday:
this day was super weird..as i said..left ec's house..took freaking long to get home..waited damn long at bp (hs's stop) for 190...and just as i reached home..hs called and told me he was at amk and...i went to meet him.YEAH MAN..dinner at cwp...was cancelled...cos hs said there was someone killed and he wanted to stay away....anyway.the day ended like that..lame..but hs rocked! =)

wednesday:
whole day spent at home..mum had tuition with some kids..couldnt play piano..went for a 11 round jog at tp stadium just before dinner..but i didnt have dinner..couldnt be bothered to buy dinner..haahha..NOW IM JUST WAITING..WAITING..WAITING!!!!!!! FOR TMR OMG OMGOM OGMOMGOMGOGMOGMOGMOGMOGMOGMOGM..ITS GONNA BE THE BLAST MAN..TEAM OUTING OMGOMOGMOGMOGMOGMOGMOMGOMG..LETS GOOOOOO.SENTOSA!! HC BBALL '04 to '07 FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER ^5 GUYS!!

this has gotta be the best best best..i love the team man!!

made plans on friday for mugging..oh my god..so last minute..what the? kk..i make a resolution now..i'll do gp reading tasks for boss..stop procrastinating..

I MUST PASS 2 subjects for mid years..

hahah..hmm..i cant wait for you guys..it'll take alot more than just 2 questions of math to put me to sleep tonight.seriously..i need a double does of math.hahah

omg im so excited!! YEAHHHH!!

ciao

things are getting abit better..

i guess..things are getting a bit better? =)

hahaha..im going for guitar pract tmr..haha.hope they dont find out that im not from guitar..i mean.i really enjoy music lah.just a tiny bit less than i enjoy bball..

hmm...schoolwork..havent been catching up that much la..just been busy thinking..thinking of this, thinking of that..i cant go to sleep..been sitting on my bed since 8++..till now.i still cant sleep.zz.

how come some ppl are so driven by their work..if they dont like it, they still do it because its their responsibility..for me..if i dont like, i just dont feel like doing it.even if its my responsibility..haiz..big mistake..

whats in my mind anyway?? i dont even knw exactly what im thinking of lehh..sometimes i get these really weird dreams and when i wake up, i realise that they're quite real..must be the vodka...every now and then, i wake up not knowing if the past day was real..sometimes i confuse my dream with the reality.because sometimes the dreams are so..realistic..hahah..

dad told me to cut down on the drinking..yeahh.i know.but..actually i dont drink alot..hahah.a bit only mahh..i can stop now la..i drink for the fun one..not cos i need alcohol to survive or sth.hahaha.

piano's great..i like learning new songs..everyday..if possible..i was trying to learn mozart's sonata in a..but i realised it was too long..so i just learnt turkish march lo..but also super hard la..hahah

i like the sonata in a..its so peaceful.lol.haha

yeahh.life's getting better..just hope it gets a bit better.

ciao

Dedicated to the number 14