dont look back

this is.....life?

2008-07-24T19:55:00.002+08:00

haiz..so what am i now?? halfway in between being this and that..

thought today wasnt bad....after a long day of pissifying school was over..i could finally get to meet my teammies..the winners in my life..the only ppl who nvr give up on me...the only ppl who can make me happy in the shortest possible time..i miss you guys so much..chionged to vivo after sch to meet kang and ji..lol.then we did sth extremely impt..anyway..had a real long talk with them..felt so.....good.lol.

to have to leave hwachong was bad...it was seriously my fault..haiz..look at my miserable self now..i got nothing at all..but the only thing i wont regret is o lvls..lol....ya sure..i didnt put in much effort..but who cares? i had fun....nono.i mean.i actually had a life..remember when i used to go out almost every single day..played bball almost everyday..laughed along and had fun with bballers almost everyday..they were great days..and sec school days were seriously my best days ever..

now..i still have a life..a saturday life..like kang...i live my life just to reach saturdays so that i can meet up with my teammates to have fun..rest of the time..i just pretty much live it cos i need to reach sat..

i dont regret doing badly for o lvls man..i seriously dont..i deserved it..hahah.sec school was great while it lasted..

bballers..teammates and friends for life..actually i realised that in our team....no one actually shares the same surname..for our batch luh i mean..except bert and jas...me and eddy got same chinese surname.but english also diff.i mean.this is way cool..all different surnames..all so unique..but..i love you guys all the same..we're the best.

and i will live to see saturday

ciao

i mean it.

2008-07-21T19:14:00.002+08:00

this is it..this is it..

firstly..alot of ppl have been asking me.are you ok? whats wrong? blah blah blah..nth's wrong man..i say it best, when i say nothing at all..

you know..there are some things that..haiz..you just cant force...im so tired man...extremely...tired..reach limit alr la..totally cant take it..

kang is so right...not worth it at all..

for the people you care the most about..whats the right thing you should do?

we had results analysis today..yahh.i kinda know..my results are like shit..but..i dont really get it..why did i go to jc anyway? i dont see a point in studying..and going to jc means putting myself under stress that i have to do well and promote..oh come on...

is two-face two-face? or am i actually a two-face too? but im really what i am when im in hc..

i've alr given up hope alr..i cant change who you are..

but right.aj wil nvr make me a mugger..i have a life..and i plan to live it..and score at the same time..get owned man..get owned..

ciao

hell of a week

2008-07-20T21:52:00.002+08:00

lol..the past week has been a mess..too busy for words..

monday tuesday wednesday thursday friday saturday..sian..everyday is the same..old freaking routine..why cant things change and give me a surprise instead.kk

summary..first four days were like shit..at least friday was quite fun hahaha.i brought my guitar to school.thinking i could go for guitar..like.wow..then end up cannt..and it was the noob's birthday! lol.happy birthday noob..damn dumb.went to buy cake for her.made me sweat like some idiot like that..just to cut cost..haha.dont need take bus to central ma..

saturday was super gay...just let me record down what we did can? we did approximately one round of the hill..except we did twice of slopes..then went down to the courts..usual routine..hahaha.free throws with runs..go die la..super tiring la..kns..i run until wanna die.but anyway..went on.blah blah.just kept running.until game time.didnt get to play b div..played among ourselves lo..then slacked off..did pt..went to run abit more..went to prince for lunch..but i packed from jing ji..hahah.then went to ps to watch dark night..only jas kang ric and sh were left..

anyway..although the movie cost a bomb..but it was really great yo.hahaha..i love the company.

haiz..good times bad times...can you guys still remember last year? how much fun we had together...i really miss hc like anything...i miss everything about hc..the canteen, the classrooms.the teachers..and..last but the most..my team..god damn it..i seriously miss you all like hell..although things change like shit alr..but you knw the kind of feeling i get when im with you guys?

its heavenly..try spending a week outside of hc by yourselves then suddenly come back as a team again.lol.you'll get that heavenly feeling..it rocks..if only sh would come to aj with me..then i wouldnt feel so lonely..any bballer will do..just give me one..and i'd be very contented alr..

not that im not adjusting to my new environment..i guess its fine..although i dont really see the joy in going to school..i go to school just to waste my days off so that saturday can come and i can meet you guys...

but it'll have to do for now..the new environment not bad la.but doesnt mean i'll forget you guys..

you guys own..hc..you guys own..

ciao

piano day

2008-07-14T22:30:00.002+08:00

lol..today was seriously piano day..i think now fingers must be like..at least abit faster now...siao siao..break play piano..come home play piano.everything piano...kept trying to play the chopin etude improvisation by jay..rocks la.when i was playing in school...the piano in lt 2 didnt have pedals..so..it was even better.forcing me to train without pedal..hahah.when i got home and played on my piano.wow.it was great..

re-played scales again.i wanna improve..i wanna improve..anyway..homework for tmr almost all done la..so can slack go play piano alr..haiz..very tiring lo..i dont wanna lose..

cannt lose lo..you all say kiasu..but who not kiasu..dont knw how la..have to use better ways to catch up alr..

pe was fine today..i mean.we ran alot la.no doubt..but most of the time i was slacking away..running slowly..so no prob..pt i seriously cti alr..the sit up..siao.my muscle ache havent even over la.

lame la..maturity..zz..makes me wanna puke man..living in strawberry fields forever..

lets just wait and see..hahaha

it's not gonna work man..im going to say it now.it wont work..im determined this time..extremely..you can forget about it.

ciao

2008-07-14T00:21:00.002+08:00

this weekend has been a blur..

saturday morning started off with training at hc..hmm..was tiring for me...out of practice for too too too too long..went to jing ji for lunch then towned..haha.initial d 4 was great..after that we went to ec's hse.siao..was that fun man

highlight came when ec's dad offered us wine..wthhh..i havent drank like for.1 mth ++..but hor..the wine was really great la..too great for me to resist.siaooo..red wine.great wine!

left for home after a great dinner..thanks ec and family..siao..hospitality!

slacked away sunday as usual..going to tuition then met jason in tp..watched golden army.lol.not bad la..after that came home..and did all those hw till now.abit tired alr..i can hardly focus anymore.i should sleep.

so where does that leave us? where are we now? what are we doing? how are we going to carry on? i think.im just gonna forget it...cos..its just not gonna work..and..im gonna end up dead.

ciao.

2008-07-08T00:01:00.002+08:00

it has been a long time yo.

the weekends were..so great...you wouldn't imagine how great it was..wow..friday saturday sunday..sunday and monday yo.

friday..i was very tired after school..went home to get a nap.thought was going out with the class.but ended up they all go home de go home, cca de cca..so i watched tv lo..then in the evening dad said he was going to teckwhye for some comp lesson..so i thought might as well go with him, got car ma..phoned up ec and i got myself a dinner partner =) ec rocks! went to bpp for dinner..then while i waited for dad's class to end, went to slack at bp library..borrowed 2 books.not bad la! i was super looking forward to saturday, so it was a great night! learnt how to fold a rabbit.

saturday morning..woke up super super super early to go for CIP at clementi..zz..we got scammed..or rather they got scammed too..they thought lessons were at 8 for the past 2 weeks..but we only went this week..and we went at 9..so gg..no students save for some kind souls who were nice enough to listen to learn some stuff at all..after that, ec kang me went to queens trying to find a jersey for the team.but to no avail..zz..then went into town lo.it was raining like mad la.kang went off for his og outing.ec and me..sian diao..went to wheelock, sakae no buffet..so went to find kang at cine..in the end jason joined us..then we went for suki buffet..siao..super shuang..hahaha.and jihao came in to eat too..for free..

wahh.after this then really shuang..siao diao..kang left his og..then sh and ji came along..then we went to sing k..OH NICE ONE!!! then hs and dx came..ec and ji left..but was super fun man..hong jin tao..hai2 ji4 de2 wo3 ma1?? we got so high..siao..SOOOOO high..sian.then went for dinner at taka while we discussed bball matters...until super late..went home with jason..same way as we always did..mrt to tp.bus home

SUNDAY..training in the morning.tired like shit..fitness dropped like anything..anyway..after training went out in the afternoon to ps area..played initial d.wah super fun man siao siao..tzin sh jason me..sunday night same thing again..went home same way.hahah.not alot to say..but it was really quite fun

monday was so good..today la...slacked away the morning..then afternoon went to town meet ji and jason..LOL!!! YAMAHA!!! we played the keyboards and got a little carried away when we decided to do a remix of da bei zhou! i was so highhhhhhhhh..siam siam siam siam siam siam siam siam..eh ti tao gong li gou di dak lang ah!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!! the ppl thought we siao.then played initial d again..super shuang..after ji left.we went to cine to watch wanted..SAW SWEE HOMEY WITH his wife uhhh..uhhh.swee homey.not bad seh..wanted sia..went home same way again..

im really glad we're here again..lets get the fighting spirit back..

haizz..but at the end of these 3 days..im back to nothing again..no more he yi si..no more teammates..no more..back to school..

ciao

you're already the voice inside my head

2008-07-04T23:15:00.002+08:00

this week has been shit..i cannt sleep i cannt dream every night.zzz..

anyway..has been uneventful..except that i passed one subject.failed one subject.sub passed one subject..haiz..

yesterday wasnt that bad..went to kap to meet kronky and lu gou after school..learnt how to fold a dog..like.wow...then lu gou left for home while kronky and i went for dinner at coro..after dinner..we did something really dumb.which was switching handphones..im still with kronky's phone now..sian..i miss the slide la.nvm..meeting him tmr.

today wasnt too bad.ended school at 12.00...a physics level 8 practical brought my spirits up abit..went home slacked abit..slept awhile.played some piano..asked ec out for dinner..that was the best thing i could have done man..seriously

since daddy had to go to teck whye for some course, he took me along in the car and dropped me off at phoenix..then i took a bus to lot 1..that was redundant la..cos we decided to eat at bpp in the end..walked arnd after dinner abit...went to the library.omg..the library.like.wow...borrowed 2 books.thanks ec..but when we left library, it was hardly 9..my dad ended lessons at 9.45..so i had to wait lo..and bpp doesnt really allow me to walk around for 45 mins++..esp since i go there quite alot..so no choice, go kfc read my books lo.

just got home..and learnt how to fold a rabbit..now i know the rabbit and the dog.cip time tmr..if the class not gonna have SL, im definitely not gonna just stone and wait for death man..

haiz..sian..hopefully tmr got team outing..i need some support...and...hopefully we're going for the tournament as a team..i really hope to play as a team again la...i enjoy playing bball so so much..

ok..time to go..gotta wake up early..zzz.clementi time tmr..abit far k

ciao

first day of school officially

2008-06-30T20:59:00.003+08:00

lessons start alr..it isnt that bad lahh..hahah.not worth killing yourself over this kinda things hahah..well..super tired..

just last night as i was ready to go to bed..i decided to ask about the topics which were to be covered in chem today..and i realised i didnt do gp..so chiong lo..then didnt sleep much although i didnt watch euro..like..everyone was up to watch euro.i was up doing hw..zz..4 newspaper articles.haha

anyway..i passed gp..thank god.really..thank god.yeahhh.tmr is a rather slack day..econs and math and gp and pw only.hope i'll have fun.

off to play piano soon.

dont knw what to say anymore.

feels like the first day

byebye

today..

2008-06-23T19:51:00.002+08:00

what the hell..im like.so dead for econs..its SO dead..my case study anyhow do..essay anyhow do..tmr got chem and yet im still slackin.hahaha.i heck care alr la..kill me.tmr math consultation..i dont even knw ANYTHING how to consult..its totally i need lecture la..not consultation..

lol..i walked home after taking bus with lao chen today..hahaha.it was a great walk..gave me..around 20 mins of time to rethink what i wanna do..yeah...did i really look very stressed??? =(

haiz.i think in the short span of a few days..i changed alot..and i think its because of something someone told me...yeahh.but its not your fault lahh..im just sad that things turned out..this....way?

anyway..i've been playing lots of piano these few days..i think it helps me think properly..what do i really want? what was i really thinking? was i being serious at all? is it what it seems like?

next term cannt slack anymore..zz..slack anymore and thats the end of me..its not only the end of me..i'll do one more year..zz.i dont wanna do one more year..i dont want to..i must clear this year..must.furthermore..i cannt let myself down.

hmm..yeahh..i've concluded that.things have changed.alot.quite alot..tmr will be a better day? lol.it only gets worse man..

running away

2008-06-21T20:24:00.002+08:00

what if i told you that i couldn't be there for you anymore?
what if...things happen in a really unexcpected way?
what if it is true that i really changed alot in these mere few days?
will you run away?

today was great.woke up at 9..met kronky at coro 12 noon..photocopied enthalpy..left for kap to MUG..i mean.like.really..we finally mugged..finished WEP, measurements, kinematics tutorial.75% through forces..but i just cant do dynamics la..because its confusing me.i mean..resolve vectors than resolve la.dont need make it so complicated right? gosh..

past 2 days, i've been mugging..believe it or not..i feel that everytime i try to mug, i get into a whole new level..im mugging much more than o lvl period now.lol.不断超越自己，不断进步。。
thing is..i'll still fail.no joke.

the only things that keeps me going when i feel like doing sth else.
1. i want to promote, together with my teammates ***
2. i want to do hc proud
3. i dont want to be despised
4. i want to make my mom proud for the first time in her life
5. i dont want to be the old slacky me, i know i've changed, and i want to be a new person..i want to leave the laziness behind..i know i've changed.thats what im thinking..in my mind all the time, when i want to put the notes down, when i feel like putting the pen down..i just think of these, and i'll go on
6. i've had enough of failing tests

well..i probably cant pass mid years..but i'll continue working hard no doubt..get all my concepts clear..do tutorials..hmm.im not that sure.lol..

anyway..my shoes were stolen..shit man.SHIT..now i gotta wear air max to sch..i hate wearing air max to school.firstly, the occasion is not fit for the shoes.secondly, its a tight fit..zzz..then because of mid years i havent been able to buy new shoes..i think thursday i shall go to queensway and buy a pair of adidas superstar..low cut.bball shoes, fit for school.just nice.air max too royal.lol!

went for my haircut..told the barber specifically not to shave my sideburn..hahahah.im going to keep it..remember sec 4? hahahhaa.i want THAT kind of sideburn..the zai kind.like goat like that one.

hahhahah.had enough fun.time to study again.haiz..sorta gave up on econs alr.

things change fast..grab hold of as much as you can..let the rest be beautiful memories..forever in your heart.

have fun.

yeah

2008-06-19T21:58:00.002+08:00

wow..what a day..today was really long..

firstly i woke up and had breakfast..then i had to go to school to submit hw for the boss...then came home..took the bike..left for esso to pump up the tires..and went to eddy's house to study..and.....i really did study..im like..so proud of myself la...the first time i actually studied..i accomplished more today than i did in the whole hols put tgt man..so now chem bonding rather done..energetics rather done..physics quite done..math heckcare..econs heckcare..so my only 2 subjects as long as pass i laugh le..

i did wep at eddy's hse today..touched on a little kinematics..left measurement not sure only..once i settle..i happy alr..

now i just wanna revisit a few old songs..has been a tiring day for me today la..wth...cycle here cycle there..hahaha

kk..got nth much to say..except that.....

i guess...haiz...

ciao

back to this: "all that i've got"

2008-06-16T22:57:00.002+08:00

today..was the dumbest day ever..went back to home no.2 to get notes from krongy..left for coro with krongy..went to golden rooster with krongy..drank chocolate milkshake while krongy ate his rice..went ntuc with krongy..went home alone..lol..

slacked at home..trying to play the piano..not many new inspirations la..cant come up with anything interesting except playing from scores...still fine tuning the jay chou dou qin songs..haiz..very strenuous leh..super hard la.anyway..we had ig outing today..6 ppl turned up.hahaha.rather cool huh..it was rather fun luh really.hahha.but..that was my fourth carl's junior visit within 2 weeks.omg.i feel like puking alr..i dont wanna eat that stuff...see la..now i gotta go running tmr.zz..

tmr gp project in the morning..lunch..probably go to bishan get some notes from eddy..then go boonlay get notes from laozhang..finish notes then study arnd there...till mommy and daddy brings little bros to play chinese chess..eat dinner with them..go home in a car..sounds tempting..i think thats the way tmr shall go..for now i must study chemistry..today was too much fun..this cant go on.i need to pass at least 2 subjects.

aiya..zzzzzzz..i go sing guan huai fang shi la..sian diao..sing something interesting to make my day.if i can start learning and finish learning bonding by 1 am..i'll be a free man..cos that leaves me with energetics and physics only..hahaha..

hi math..ya see ma face? it says..get lost. -.- why would the sch wanna force ppl to take math man..i mean..ewww..i hated playing with those numbers ever since my mum told me that math was an easy subject and that she aced it..ewww.like..wheres the fun in math man..gross...

ok..enough about academics.hahah.on to life as a whole..i dont knw what to say..im quite a failure..

and i miss you the most...and i.............need you the most..

hols gonna be over soon..when its over..its a long way till hc gathering again..haha.must treasure the times..i love hc.

bye

lol

2008-06-15T19:09:00.002+08:00

from tmr..im going to make myself think that today is the last day of hols and that i have mid yrs tmr so as to make myself study..lol.lame la.

yesterday was great..great like anything.hahahha.woke at arnd 5.20 to rush to clementi for cip..climbed bukit timah hill with aged ppl who were members at a home..omg.those aged ppl..i dont knw wanna call them uncle aunty or call da ge da jie man..they super energetic and high..totally not what you'd expect of aged ppl..it was great =) i wanna do it again.those ppl rock.and so do my teammates =)))

today..i went to boon lay to support my bros in chinese chess..guess they didnt do extremely well..but what can i expect? they're sec 1s playing in open category.lol..my bros rock too! went to JP with my mum and got new shirts.hahah.nt bad..

yeahhhh..gotta start mugging..zzz.i need eddy to save me..i realised i dont knw ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT of things..i just wanna pass man..

havent been playing alot of piano/guitar..havent been singing alot..hahaha.not very in touch with music..havent been playing alot of bball either..hahah.not in touch with sports..but i run quite alot nowadays =)

yepp yepp..this hols..has really been ec's hse all the way..we ton-ed twice..went several times..hahah.even know his brothers alr la..then its like..i think its really put me back in touch with the team..in pae..it was almost as if i wasnt in singapore alr.totally didnt go out with bballers alot..nvm..im back now..

for this hols..i wanna learn new songs..i learnt only one, yesterday, still got alot la.but i cant remember.lol.

well..the family went out again..for part 2 of chess competition..i didnt wanna go since i cant pick up notes and i feel like practising piano.hahah

i'll see if i can mug tmr before outing.

im not ready yet..i guess....it just doesnt feel right.lol

ciao

that was....a blast

2008-06-13T21:30:00.003+08:00

omg...thursday was a great great day..hahahaha

as usual..only ec was early..12noon meeting time..guess who showed up at 6pm? *coughs**dx**coughs* anyway..11 ppl showed up..last of the 11-dx to show up was arnd 2...we ended up reaching sentosa arnd 3+ when meeting time was 12... -.- anyway..we had alot..alot..alot.of fun..$4 per person we had so much fun..thats so cool.

hahah.soccer first..then slack..then softball wth! lol..ric and his cool ideas..like wth..the stick became a bat..and the soccer/volleyball became the softball..cool man..anyway..it was a really cool cool outing omg..cant be bothered to upload the photos now la..really quite tired now.today was a really long day..

lol...today..was...really gay.hahaha..but i feel so tired.

tmr got cip early in the morning..wth..tired man.

gotta sleep soon.

ciao

its been a long time

2008-06-11T20:44:00.002+08:00

k...shall blog from last friday...

friday:
morning went to jess's house to slack with the class..or rather.it was just the few of us again..was planning to go for guitar la.but...yahh..you know...the ballers called and yeahhh..ballers > guitar..so went to town to watch kungfu panda(wth) with the team..it was super funny.really..super..then just went home..hahahah.but it was a great day.BUT..when my bus passed by rgs..woahh..super long day.stupid sister just had to be there..hahaha.so went amk to slack for awhile with her lo..went home after that lo..it was super great day =)

saturday:
hahahha.had plans to visit ade and jin kee at vivo for the poverty thing.hahah.but i ended up going for tuition makeup at bishan first..WHAT THE HELL.lol.mr lee.SF was there.hahahaha.woooh..crapped abit..after tuition chionged to vivo to meet the kng, hs and dx..

well..ya see..the last time i went to vivo i stood at that spot, or somewhere arnd there..and there wasnt a freaking subway...then suddenly..the subway was there..wth? kns..anyway...lol..that was one free dinner for me and hs..thanks dx..thanks like alot..for the cookies and the sandwich and the drinks and...yeah.everything.LOL! spent the rest of the time trying to find ade and jin kee.

finally found them..said my his and we left for dinner no.2...went to bk..MET MY SISTER..like wth..and then we decided carl's junior thrashes bk..so we went carl's junior..and sat our asses there from arnd (8-9) to about 11.20..yeah..then left for home from there.with my sister..and...ade and jin kee were alr at west coast..lol.

GREAT GREAT GREAT DAY..super good..except we didnt take many photos..but it was fun nevertheless..formulated plans to go to sentosa.

sunday:
super useless..i dont even want to talk about it.

monday:
ROCKER DAY THIS WAS..OMG OMG OMG..so last min..met mark in sch at arnd 10am to "mug"..ended up doing arnd 3 questions and met ec..THEN we impromptu ask to go his hse..SETTLED..STAYOVER OMG!!! called dx and sh over also..

slacked at his hse with harold and kumar and blah blah blah..thanks for dinner ec..thanks for everything..and...also the scotch..lol.it was great..esp with ice..hahahah! halfway through the "ghost" movie..we called macs.like omg..cos we watched H and K go to white castle..we were craving for burgers too..two double cheeseburgers for all of us except sze han who had 3..dx bought a meal..OMG it was great..fell asleep during meet the spartans...woke up after ec's parents left for work..f breakfast..who cares.lol..then we just played NBA ALL THE WAY TILL LUNCH YEAH BABY YEAH BABY YEAH BABY YEAH BABY YEAH BABY YEAH BABY YEAH BABY YEAH BABY YEAH BABY YEAHHHHHHHH..left after lunch..but...sentosa rather formulated..ITS TMR..OMGOMGOMG>.its tmr..but first

tuesday:
this day was super weird..as i said..left ec's house..took freaking long to get home..waited damn long at bp (hs's stop) for 190...and just as i reached home..hs called and told me he was at amk and...i went to meet him.YEAH MAN..dinner at cwp...was cancelled...cos hs said there was someone killed and he wanted to stay away....anyway.the day ended like that..lame..but hs rocked! =)

wednesday:
whole day spent at home..mum had tuition with some kids..couldnt play piano..went for a 11 round jog at tp stadium just before dinner..but i didnt have dinner..couldnt be bothered to buy dinner..haahha..NOW IM JUST WAITING..WAITING..WAITING!!!!!!! FOR TMR OMG OMGOM OGMOMGOMGOGMOGMOGMOGMOGMOGMOGM..ITS GONNA BE THE BLAST MAN..TEAM OUTING OMGOMOGMOGMOGMOGMOGMOMGOMG..LETS GOOOOOO.SENTOSA!! HC BBALL '04 to '07 FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER ^5 GUYS!!

this has gotta be the best best best..i love the team man!!

made plans on friday for mugging..oh my god..so last minute..what the? kk..i make a resolution now..i'll do gp reading tasks for boss..stop procrastinating..

I MUST PASS 2 subjects for mid years..

hahah..hmm..i cant wait for you guys..it'll take alot more than just 2 questions of math to put me to sleep tonight.seriously..i need a double does of math.hahah

omg im so excited!! YEAHHHH!!

ciao

things are getting abit better..

2008-06-02T23:32:00.002+08:00

i guess..things are getting a bit better? =)

hahaha..im going for guitar pract tmr..haha.hope they dont find out that im not from guitar..i mean.i really enjoy music lah.just a tiny bit less than i enjoy bball..

hmm...schoolwork..havent been catching up that much la..just been busy thinking..thinking of this, thinking of that..i cant go to sleep..been sitting on my bed since 8++..till now.i still cant sleep.zz.

how come some ppl are so driven by their work..if they dont like it, they still do it because its their responsibility..for me..if i dont like, i just dont feel like doing it.even if its my responsibility..haiz..big mistake..

whats in my mind anyway?? i dont even knw exactly what im thinking of lehh..sometimes i get these really weird dreams and when i wake up, i realise that they're quite real..must be the vodka...every now and then, i wake up not knowing if the past day was real..sometimes i confuse my dream with the reality.because sometimes the dreams are so..realistic..hahah..

dad told me to cut down on the drinking..yeahh.i know.but..actually i dont drink alot..hahah.a bit only mahh..i can stop now la..i drink for the fun one..not cos i need alcohol to survive or sth.hahaha.

piano's great..i like learning new songs..everyday..if possible..i was trying to learn mozart's sonata in a..but i realised it was too long..so i just learnt turkish march lo..but also super hard la..hahah

i like the sonata in a..its so peaceful.lol.haha

yeahh.life's getting better..just hope it gets a bit better.

ciao

this is life

2008-05-31T23:45:00.003+08:00

today...was a great day.lol.

i woke up..then went back to school to play bball with my beloved teammates.lol..

fitness dropped like anything la.hahah.really cannt compare to last time alr..thanks to jeremy for teaching me stuff..i mean..its not everyday you have such a nice senior who teaches you something when he just meets you for the first time..

hahaha.sat arnd hc courts talking crap..bathed and set off to our hangout..bukit timah hawker.lol.great place yeah..holds lots of memories for me..anyway..had lunch and waited for ec to come then went to his house lo..hahaha

what happened was..we rushed to the vodka immediately after we entered the house..which was quite gayish..haha..sat down and started drinking..ok..between the four or five of us..we finished quite abit.it felt great lahh..i mean.everyone was high and happy..it was super gay.hahah.then ppl started getting wasted..*coughs* who ah?? *winks at dx* lol..it was great though..they mainly played xbox while i was playing the piano -.- just kept drinking and drinking la..didnt feel bad until i was on the way home..got abit nauseous..but cos i had worse experiences, it wasnt too bad la..i mean..it was just a nauseous feeling lo..after awhile nothing alr.but i feel abit..tired now la..and i can still feel the vodka in my mouth..abit strong ah..

i remember..the last time we all had vodka in ec's house, i was still in hc..and we were all happy kids..haiz..i should never have slacked..shld nvr have left..i know all the time, how much you guys mean to me..every single teammate i had since sec 2..you all mean alot alot to me...everything we went through together.haiz..why'd it have to end like that..

i want to keep all those memories..they are..sweet..and i hope that this will carry on..i mean, the way we're meeting up even though we have split up.even within hc, you guys have split up into your own ways..not everybody sees everybody everyday anymore..zz..and that feeling.is shit..i love my teammates..im mean it..they mean so much to me..we never said that we were best friends..i mean.other than a few of us telling each other...we never said in a group that the bball teammates were our best friends, but....its apparent isnt it? that we ARE best friends..the best.of the best.like...we didnt even say it out la..thats why its so real..when i need help..who are the first ppl i think of?? team of '05 to '07..no matter how much i try, i cannot and will not ever forget you guys..

we make no concious effort to stay together..we dont force ourselves to message each other everyday...but when we miss each other, we always gather..and we always..always have fun..thats what a team is for.best thing is this..no matter who betrays who or whatever..actually..we dont really have this kind of things in our team la..but even if it does happen..pls..its hurting, but it wont last for long..because one party will apologise..and everything will be back to normal..thats a team..thats true friendship..and thats....hc..that is hc..bonds that will not break..i didnt predict wrongly..i didnt join the wrong team..yeah so what we never won? we can raise our heads up high..because we are a team..and we have fought..

hahhhahah.know what? actually the thing i hate alot is getting betrayed, not knowing i got betrayed..and not knowing who stabbed me in the back with the sharp knife...bt its always worse, when you find out that you got stabbed..and the identity of the person who stabbed you.lol =) then again..sometimes the question is not who stabbed you..is..do you deserve to be stabbed.lol.

we have a long way ahead of us..lets walk down this path together guys..i seriously appreciate all of you..for being behind me when i needed help..like..you guys are probably the only few ppl who are really supporting me no matter what my problem is...and that really helps alot..it comforts me..really..really..lets go buy our team bag..and print a team T...we gonna own..hahaha

true friends dont come by easily..lol.these are guys who actually know me, know who i am, know what i like to do, know what i dont like, know my habits..and i know the same things about them..this is a team..YEAH MAN!

oh come on..pull the bloody knife out for me guys and apply some ointment please..hahaha.i dont give a damn if there'll be a scar..i just hope that i'll always be wearing a shirt =)

so what if you DO know everything? so what if you're actually smart at all? dont be too cocky..it can be your downfall..hahahah..moral of the story..stay alert at all times..and dont.ever.ever.ever.ever.ever leave your teammates.because they'll be the ones who help you shield the knife..they'll be the ones who remove the knife for you in case it cant be stopped..they're the ones who will heal your wounds..love your teammates..have fun.

ciao

angels or devils?

2008-05-25T20:38:00.003+08:00

lol..the song is a great song..hahaha..today morning..i spent the whole morning watching the real 300..hahaha.quite nice..then afternoon spent watching stephen chow..super nice...played abit of piano before leaving for tuition..came back..played more piano.went to buy dinner..slacked till now.

crazy..im like getting so involved in music la..hahahaha.

im trying to train up the biceps..i wanna get silver...sian la..i mean..all the other stations all settled alr..only left this shit..zzpullup pullup..where got last year do 3 now do 0 de..cannt be..i must train damn hard.

dont look back..

说好了要走就要走。。离开就离开。。。没有回头，不留遗憾，不能后悔。前方，是绝路。。希望却在前方。。看到绝路未必得走转角。。看到一堵墙，就把墙打垮。。看到泛滥的河水，敢敢地游过去。游过去之后，以前的事情将变成回忆。。无论是美丽获痛苦的回忆，都别再翻了。。勇往直前，自强不息。不管听见什么，都别再回头了。。意志要坚定。

做人重要的是坦诚相待他人。以免他人以其人之道还治其人之身。我了解这个理由了。还好我到底还是醒了。老妈，我以后不敢玩火了。。

真是发人深省喔。。哈哈哈哈。我做梦，做恶梦，做白日梦，做什么梦都没想到哩。。该反省一下了！

再见

2008-05-24T23:41:00.002+08:00

hahahah.the past week has been like..wow.sunday esplanade concert rocked the shit.monday no school..what did i do..hmm...cant remember..dont think i did much.hahah.yeah.nothing.then tuesday was cool.school.then wednesday....was great.concert debrief, goodbye seniors..then.went home..had a rest..then went to ec's house..omg..overnight soccer game..and whiskey.lol =)

then after that..thursday woke up..went to school for awhile..went home..slept till it was time for finals..then went to watch bball finals..HC WON!! omg.congrats marc!! you rock! then friday had gp exam.i studied a little la...read media reading package..but prob is.i didnt do media question.hahah..anyway.the hols are here..yeah yeah yeah man!

hahahaha..i finally understand alr..finally..finally.

HERE I GO! SCREAM MY LUNGS OUT AND TRY TO GET TO YOU! lol

im so happy im so happy im so happy man.

next week gonna be fun..full of mugging and balling activities..wow!

omg..esplanade rocked..i just realised we made history! like...omg

ciao

2008-05-19T12:32:00.003+08:00

concert rocked like anything..omg.the feeling was..great...

thinking back..if i hadnt met the gan when i was talking to fts, i wldnt be where i am now..happy in my class..omg....its so..great.its fate lah...YES! WE DID IT! TO A VERY NEAR SOLD OUT CROWD!!! thats the reason we train on mondays wednesdays thursdays and saturdays and public holidays..this is why..omg!! this is why we go home at 8+ or even 9..this is the reason why we bust our asses on public holidays to practise..this ROCKS! this is music..omg.its not about achievements..its not about your sgc..its not even freaking about anything else..when you're on that stage..showing the world the fruit of your labour.that...is..something.the feeling equals playing on court..it just rocks..i promise from now on, i dont wanna be someone who just trains because he has to go for practice or sth..i wanna be someone useful..i dont wanna be a person who trains for sgc..or anything..i dont care if i dont have any achievements..i love this...its so overwhelming..

esp encore..wow.....i dont care if i dont go to prague or italy or even syf...because i dont care..i love singing.

thanks for the support once again guys..and calv and alv and justin for going to dinner with me after that..lol.thanks for coming too, the rest of you..you guys really mean alot...to take out that hour or 2 to come and watch us perform..even as you guys have pw due tmr...chinese mid years on thurs and gp mid years on friday..wow..jiayou everybody..we better all ace the tests..thanks!!!! =) thanks..thanks..thanks!!!!!!

i'll remember what you said laoda...dont worry..i wont let you down.

lets show them we got the balls.

ciao

2008-05-17T19:06:00.002+08:00

i wont give in.....

lol..let me tell you..that doesnt mean anything..it doesnt show that my talent or potential is any less than yours..lets wait and see..i'll show you...one fine day.dont show that diao look on your face.

music is not about grading..its about feeling and passion...i do music not for any achievements...i dont mind if at the end of two years my testimonial sucks..actually i dont see the point of testimonials..its pretty pointless..i dont care..as long as i find joy in music..i wont mind..haha

anyway..good job for college day guys..tmr concert yeah...lets just do it well..its a near sellout concert..lets do our very best.own the crowd..rule the theater..as long as we all sing out the best we can la..k? =)

bye

retarded

2008-05-15T22:55:00.002+08:00

lol..well..what can i say..im not really unhappy about it or what..but its just disappointing lo.yeah.like..after all..its not like i didnt put in effort..hahah..doesnt matter...we can always try again..

passed my 2.4...the results not exactly good la..actually..its rather shitty..its really rather shitty.hahaha.nver mind luh..i gave up on this year anyway..next year then get lo..start training now.by next year i'll be in condition to at least get silver..but super tired now..today was really...yesterday..i mean..i slept at 2 today.woke at 5.30..then it was lessons all the way...and choir till now..like..not now la.but after i bathe eat blah blah blah..im here..ready to die for spa tmr..im not gonna study for it la..

this is life...sometimes you just gotta pay for what you did.lol.

lol..alot of funny things happened today...alleviated some of my stress la..was feeling super f-ed up when i woke up at 5+ was lke..ready to kill...bloodshot eyes..emotionally tired..and didnt feel like giving a damn......

the absolutely gorgeous one..hahahah.wth..great term.

its great to have ppl arnd you supporting you when you're down..but sometimes..you need to support yourself..and im too tired to support myself now..im crumbling into pieces..god damn shit..thanks for the support.you guys..are the best people i can ask for...im so glad god decided to give me you guys as friends..its like..siao.thank god.thank god..there can always be better ppl out there no doubt..but im super satisfied with the friends i have now..to me..you are the best! rock on guys...

mind the grammar.lol...the last thing i'd wanna sound like is some cheem english speaker wannabe.and failing badly because i have a grammatical error in my sentence..but neh mind la..singlish la..nothing wrong sia..its our language..use it wisely ma! yeah!

loll.you just wait..you just wait......wait....thanks for the inspirational talks.all my laodas..i know you guys trying to motivate me..normally, i wld resist it.because i hate doing what others tell me to do...but..now i wanna be motivated..

dont worry..i'll be just fine.hahahah!

byebye

here there and everywhere

2008-05-11T13:39:00.002+08:00

knowing that love is to share...each one believing that love never dies, watching her eyes, and hoping im always there.i will be here...there and everywhere...here there and everywhere! macca rocks!

omg wanderlust is such a nice song...light out wanderlust..

yesterday was such a tiring day.omg.it was super siao..2 full dress rehearsals.have to chiong to change also..i hope its worth it.haha.zz.next sat college day..

hmm..these few days i havent been able to concentrate well due to the lack of sleep..zz..cant stand it man.

its this time of the year again..just like last year and the year before..haha.you know? i predict something and i dont really expect it to happen..as in.i predict sth..but i hope it doesnt come true...and yet somewhere deep inside me i know it will..aiya..very hard to describe..its just feel la.hahaha.nvm about that..anyway.

haizz..sian de.still got idiots trying to do dumb stuff..

all we can do..is do our best lo..jiayou.

2008-05-10T00:38:00.003+08:00

wheee..real tired..but it was worth it.hahah.

is it just me? hahaha.or was it quite fun after all?

its not easy to do things like that....but i took the first step i guess..something inside me pulled me deep beneath the surface..i felt like...a totally different person.until the vulgarities started coming in and spoiled the day again.lol

nvm..must just enjoy the rest of my days also..kk..

byebye

2008-05-08T23:12:00.002+08:00

hahah.well..today was great.1 and a half hrs free after sch started..all the way.haha.the rest of the day went pretty smooth..

it gave me alot of time to rethink about life as the higher chinese gang were hanging arnd the piano in lt2..hahah.the echo pedal got problem..but anyway.the thing is...tmr is gonna rock.but i got a hell lot of scores to mug..and a econs test to study for..gpp of course..after handing in 3 drafts in 4 days wtf...good job guys.lets go! jiayou..dont give up.ever..

sometimes..you just gotta learn to do some stuff..hahaha.im taking my first step..lets do our best.

learn to smile..

i will not forget what i set out to be...im still working on my goal...yeah..hc spirit.pls bless me.

lol..really..i shall be a happy man.

ciao

get well soon!

2008-05-06T22:35:00.004+08:00

ewww..today wasnt too good.but tmr is great.we have 5 stations =)) and physics lecture..and that marks the end of the day!! then got learning journey..no college day rehearsal..

thursday not bad i think..but got physics makeup..then have to stay back till super late for practice..but i guess its worth it! lets make this a huge success..i've always thought leh..if you dont wanna do sth, then dont do it at all..if you need to do sth, or you want to, then do it to the best..BEST.BEST.not sure if i'll qualify for the competitions we're participating in next year, so this is probably my one and only performance..yeah i knw its pathetic..but i'll do my best.lets go yeah!

failed math! =) hahah.no sweat..im going for consulation tmr..hahaha.my results curve can only have a positive gradient..no fear man!

econs test next tues! after that, left gp then hols! then its mugging time for mid years..omg i cant freaking wait ok..i mean...cant wait for midyears..not the hols.imagine mugging for mid years..i cant imagine the fun of having lots of time and just mugging it away..nvr tried it.hahaha

concert 18th may..after that..its study time yeah!

been training for secret alot nowadays..trying to get all the notes correct...i wanna play the song super well..and super fast..and super nice..i want to be a good pianist..and a proficient guitarist..and an average singer.

okokok...its gonna be really fun yeah!

anyway..yeah.get well soon gwee, the ms universe 2010! =)

2008-05-05T06:33:00.002+08:00

its 6 in the morning..lol.6.30 actually...my sleep has made me realise alot.hahahaha..kk

gotta go school alr..i wasted my yesterday away.guess who hasnt studied for chem test? =)

remember to let her into your heart, then you can start to make it better! YEAH!

hahaha.18th may concert.lets pia for this..yeah heh eh heh!

ya ya..gotta go alr.this week is a really cool week!

ps. thanks everybody..those who pulled me through.god bless you ppl.

2008-05-04T22:29:00.002+08:00

is there any use in being down at all?? hahaha.i dont think it even matters..forget it.

im looking forward to school tmr..

goodbye

2008-04-28T21:51:00.002+08:00

im listening to jiu4 shang1 xin1 hen2 now..and im feeling sad..really sad..very stressed over pi..last minute changes have to be made..and guess what..something has to add on to my sadness..rihui is leaving.back to msia for him..although i only knew him for such a short period of time..but hes been a great person..reliable and all..and it feels super sad to see him go.who knows when we'll meet again..

thanks for the support today cindy..it meant alot..

ciao

when there ain't nowhere you can go..

2008-04-27T14:09:00.002+08:00

backdate abit..to friday..it wasnt too bad..can play bball properly alr..if i dont strain the right elbow too much when shooting..hmm..friday was a busy day..

i went to watch hc play nyjc at sbc..we won luh..nono.not we.hc won.but it wasnt a convincing win..jiayou guys! then went home with eddy..omg his hair is freaking long.you better get a haircut soon or you'll be caught..

went home to bathe before heading towards city hall to celebrate qiaoyi's belated birthday.happy birthday qiaoyi!! hmm..it was rather dumb la.we ate at some place..then went for ice cream then had to go home alr..but i had fun.

then..saturday came..i went for choir camp.it was great! full day camp..we did choreo for many hours under the hot sun..who would have thought that you could get a sunburn in choir.lol..

anyway..the whole thing ended at 10+? then went home lo..and slept till 8 this morning..haiz..time to chiong work..guess im not going for chem tuition later..or else i cant finish my pi..im alr quite quite quite satisfied with my pi..but still need to improve.

finished learning secret..i mean.like.finally...after such a long time..anyway errr.yepp..2 common tests tmr..

choir jiayou..quickly chiong practice for concert..after we make a smashing hit we can lie low and study..im in desperate need of catching up..after the recent tests, ive realised that it isnt that hard if you just study..well..mum ive changed.thanks for the guidance.

tsk..have to do PI soon..then mug abit for chem commontest.yeah..jiayou ba

what can i say..well.dont say anything..i think thats the best solution..

ciao

wow

2008-04-17T23:42:00.002+08:00

got some time..hahaha.shall waste it..yeah anyway..today was..fine? hahahah.it was really not bad lah..i mean..it was fun..but it was also..hmm..dont knw

anyway..today is tan pei ting's birthday!! too bad she didnt come to school ;) happy birthday!! yeah! hahahha.the rest of the day was pretty much very bad..and i caught a flu..had to skip pe and choir prac..i didnt go to see a doctor..good game..paiseh anyway..my present abit..errrps.haiz..zibei.lol! i go make diy present la!! got abit of time anyway.hahah

hmm..tmr is going to be a fine day..rather fine..look..we're going to end official at 12.15...then gp makeup..chinese for chinese takers..and then math makeup..omg.its so cool! and after that..i'll see what i can do.hahaha.yeahhh..

ciao

why is that so?

2008-04-15T23:44:00.002+08:00

this world is weird...sometimes.you see things coming your way..like a vision..but somehow you just do not want to believe in that vision because you dont think that you can be that accurate...somehow.things always come true according to your prediction..i love it this way..

sidetrack abit..why am i called robert? this has gotta be one of the funniest things that has happened in my life..i cant really rmb the rationale..i think it was about me always niao3ing ppl? lol..bird --> "bert" lol.

anyway..its time for me to sleep..hahaha.who knows........

im so tired.but there is so much for me to say..i shall summarise it..this year has been full of coincidences.like it or not.yeahhh..secondly.this year has been full of surprises...mostly negative ones..but it doesnt matter..because im here where i am now..right here.right now.

sometimes in life..its more about just doing your best..its about doing your best in the right way.

im very tired i can hardly type properly......

im going to fall asleep right here right in front of the comp..i need to go.

hopefully nothing goes wrong...hopefully...

everybody take care...

goodbye.. =)

pls smile..alot.. =))

carry on

2008-04-13T22:16:00.003+08:00

i wanted to write something philo..but i think its not the right time.hahah =)

yesterday was a great outing..hahahaha.but it cost a bomb..wth..my canadian money! hahah.nvm la.not like i'll be needing money any time soon =)

well..i've only started doing my ap/gp tutorial and summation tutorial today..ap/gp almost done la..its the summation that is really super gg.and theres a test tmr.but it doesnt matter luh.hahaha.atomic structure.god bless me la.hopefully i dont screw up..actually..if i take the effort to do some work..getting avg results not too difficult..depends on what i really want..its only now that i realised some things in life..its within your reach, do you want to get it?

i've been wondering about something for a very long time..my doubts are finally cleared...it feels like a load off my mind..great! hahaha.dont worry it'll be fine! =) i'll try my best to keep my promise...but its not up to me.hahaha.

its strange that...at this point in life..i finally feel a sense of belonging in choir.hahah..that day when i heard them sing our theme song..i felt an overwhelming feeling..when all the melodies from the different sections mix together..its just like cooking a big pot of wonderful food..its like when you play super well as a team..you knw..actually..right now..the teaming i miss most was one particular team that coach only played once..me alvin ricky laoniu daniel..that was...sec 3? yeah.hahahahaha.i loved it.all 5 transferred in from elite sports.not too tall..not too short.multi positional..inside outside.running.lol.i loved it.it was total run and gun!!

hahaha.im thinking of my life's journey..hahah.how i got into hc..how i got into bball..how i bonded with the team..1j2j3p4p..today i was talking to leejy...and i realised..how much i miss 1j2j...the times we had..the shen2 class..the team..i love everything about hc..it seems like ive come a long way...all the way..to cj.to aj..to where i am now..hahaha.im listening to the choir theme song..its so nice..it can seriously bring me to tears..oh my god..i realised how long i took to type this post...hahah.

i got so much to say..so little time..no words can express how much i miss pae..no words can express how much i miss hc..my teammates.my brothers.when i think of pae days..i am totally overwhelmed..totally..more so when i think of hc times..

theres no such thing as no time..its your priority..now the priority is to go and try to learn summation.if i have ANY time at all tmr..i'll post what i really want to say.

dont worry..i'll try to make it be fine..i'll try to keep my promise..thats what i like to do..rest assured.keeping my promise to you will be one of my top priorities.. =) =) time is precious time is precious dont waste dont waste..shi jian bao gui!!

lol..anyway im wondering..why'd i have so much to do with short girls this year? =P

=))

goodbye..take care.

i dont feel any shame, i wont apologise

2008-04-06T19:32:00.004+08:00

where there aint nowhere you can go..

running away from pain when you've been victimised..

tales from another broken home.

maybe i AM amazed..

sorry i cldnt make it on thurs to collect the certs or whatever..lol.im a busy man..joking =)

i cant make it on monday too..sorry ts..i end at...7.30 earliest..then tuesday.oh god 4.15...wednesday..5.30..thursday..7.30..friday my free day.tmd ji dan..i dont want to waste it collecting some bloody cert pls..not worth the time..so i've decided..i dont care.im going back on one of these days.mon to thurs..i dont freaking care.my friday is mine.so is sat..dont snatch it away from me..sunday is devoted to enrichments and tuitions and revisions whatsoever..not like the school admin centre is open anyway.ok..thats not the point..the point is..thursday and friday no lessons =)) cos got festival of life! hopefully practice is called off too..haiz.then i can enjoy 2 days..

yesterday was...omg.freaking.bloody cool.i just woke up..and slacked my life away all the way..till ph called me asked whether want go out.omg.i totally feel that in the whole bball team super super super super super zai..too bad the rest cldnt come...supposed to go sch to meet them.but i was lazy luh..so just met in town lo.kng ph jh me.hahahah.it was cool.slacking at ljs.then the lan came along..and did her art -.- and we "helped" her..then.the bball gang needed to leave alr..so go lo..went to queenstown there with kng and lan.omg..laughing the whole way..wth.i cant believe it.hahahahahaha.that was so cool =) then from queens take bus back to city hall meet wil..laughed a hell lot again..then from city hall go changi aiport wtf..when we reached there..the time was like..oh my god freaking 9..zz.sian.we had fast dinner then the rest of the activities from now onwards entirely secret.lol..but.im broke..broke to the max.my money.omg.OMG..good game.anyway got home.didnt want to sleep so tried solving rubiks..yeah.i managed to do....one side wtf..gahhh.still trying to solve the whole thing.anyway slept at 1++..woke at 8.wtf..had light breakfast.slacked all the way till 3..went for chem tuition.rocker! with ph and ljy..wj was in the class too wth..

i miss hwachong..i miss the team..i miss seeing you guys arnd the corners.and the constant pounding, poking or whatever things..i miss hc bball c div 2005..our batch's most bonded year ever..eddy ji dx tzin daniel kangkang lugou sh ricky laoniu me yewwei eechu ph zhao qy..aiya..everyone..and1monk.blah..we were never part of any achievements..but we never gave up on anything..i miss our playing.the fastbreaks.coach's teachings.

when i think back to the times we enjoyed tgt as a team..sometimes i'll somehow feel that i shld have worked abit harder..then we wldnt have had to part..and i wldnt have had to get out of hc to see the world outside..after i see the world outside..i gotta tell you.nothing beats home.esp a really big home..its too late to say all these..all i can say is..hc....is flowing in my blood, engraved on my heart..its in me..

anyway..back to impt stuff..zz.pi 1st draft dio gan..blah dee hell..have to do the second draft now..cos tues got pw.wth..hahaha.doesnt matter doesnt matter..never say die.lets go go go! thats the spirit.zi qiang bu xi.yong bu yan qi.

anyway i was watching a hc bball finals vid..which made me all pumped up..i love hc.go hc go go go..i'll be supporting hc.atw atw atw..

looking back at the past..i was abit too dumb..i shld have used my brains just that little little bit more..

on the other hand..i dont see a future...there might be none

nothing is for certain..there is never the absolute zero..but...no matter what happens....may god bless you all.. =)) dont worry..it'll be fine (thanks).. =)

dont ever weep..be strong..

amen..my best wishes =))

goodbye

im back

2008-03-30T00:47:00.002+08:00

comp was down for a long period of time.im back now.wow.yow..

yeahhh..so tired.these few days..marathon..eww

singing cai3 hong2 and ge1 qian3 to relieve some stress..gahh.wahh..these few days ah..alot of unexpected things happened..so stupidly dumb that i cannt even understand how it happened la seriously...i dont knw..

i gotta stop this right now.too idiotic alr..oh anyway..piano results are releasing alr i think? not very sure..but im quite sure that im screwed..wth..where got ppl piano fail until like that man..zz.this rocks..ge qian has gotta be one of the coolest songs ever man..woowwwww..i have a whole pile of tutorials to do..yet here i am not giving a hoot about it..i rock..i'll fail man..

the most you can do is hide for a moment...you cant hide forever man..you can run for awhile..but you cant run forever..you gotta stop and fight and win and move on...thats life..i just realised the true meaning of that..but at least i still found out la..not bad.

aiya..i dont even knw what im saying le..im too tired la.aiyo..really cannt take it anymore..stressed ahh..yet i have to act like nothing's wrong..and act cheerful blah blah blah all that crap =( and all of you cant even understand why..

im sorry.. =((

ciao

today is my lucky day

2008-03-07T21:00:00.000+08:00

haiz.today is my lucky day

today is my lucky day

today...is my lucky day

搁浅

2008-03-06T22:03:00.002+08:00

久未放晴的天空依旧留着你的笑容..

today has really been a tiring day..morning.form teacher's period.wah..then..pw lecture.then.econs lect..then.met pauline, gwee and pt to "study"..once bell struck 12.15.i left for j8.

thanks alot joanne..thanks for the notes really...hhahah.

then..it was slacking all the way from j8 to amk hub...and back to school..wapiang..hahahah.5.30 had training..so had to go back..actually.its practice la..not training.anyway..6 of us..learnt that song by ourselves..released at 6.40..went back to tp..for highlight of the day..

wah..kns...tell me what.macs..i went to tp hub the macs..dont have.i call..tell me entertainment centre..i go there.dont have..call again..yuan2 lai2 at the macs closest to my house -.- sian de leh..hahaha.anyway it was damn cool..with some old friends.and some new ones.ate dinner at that new foodcourt 2 mins away from my block..ya.after eating..talked abit.then left for home la.since the girls lived so far away..went to the mrt station with them..lol.damn dumb.after which i waited for the bus to go home from the interchange with "the man that cannot be named" (i cld have walked home from the foodcourt in 2 mins.)

hahaha.anyway on a side note..well..thats really sad news.ma de..why'd it have to turn out like that.zzz..hope its successful..many things have gone wrong this year.i hope this shit doesnt go wrong.better not go wrong.im so touched that..wow.its been the third month..since the year started..we're in different schools.and yet..we still meet up and talk like the old times..sitting there.right at that damned berth at tp interchange..talking cock about school, about ppl...about our troubles(remember?? lol) about bball..about life..

无论是孤单寂寞，或者是伤心难过。。生命中总是少不了你，我的好朋友。。一直都是。永远都会是。。但愿我们能有福同享。同甘共苦。。多年来，每次我碰到困难都找你，你有困难却一声不吭，自己扛。。谢谢你了。。我的好朋友。下不为例。。有福同享，有难同当。。懂吗？

see you guys soon in the hols..i miss the team so much..im so sorry we didnt have more outings..you guys are really the best teammates one can ask for..really..not that we are a team that nvr quarrels..but despite all the hiccups in our friendships..we are still friends..friends who sweat blood together.yahh.i really miss the times..hahaha.dont say alr la..i still need to sleep de.hahah.if i type.it'll be neverending.

yeahhh..lets go bukit timah hawker, golden rooster.btp..kap.to eat like the old days.

too tired la..so many events today.hahah.really..im too tired to think..training damn tough.wah seh..

hey j, dont make it bad, take a sad song, and make it better.remember to let her into your heart, then you can start to make it better..

ciao

i'd drive you home in a stolen car illegally

2008-03-02T17:46:00.003+08:00

wheeeee..well..i dont wanna talk about yesterday..yesterday...all my troubles seemed so far away..zz.well..only thing worth mentioning.i guess i got over my dislike for beer..lol..i took 2 cans of tiger yesterday..it was really nice.i mean..i seldom drink beer.and i didnt like it..and it has that...nice smell and...good taste.yeah.esp in ice.i drank the first can from ntuc..it was only just cold.no ice..wah..but second can at foodcourt..tsktsktsk.damn nice..cold beer.really..wow..tiger tiger tiger! but still nothing la..compared to our favourite drink!! =))

hmm..today was cool..i woke up pretty early..practising yesterday on the guitar..one day i'll restring it backwards..and play it like paul did..lol! today very much music day la..except that i missed theory..and im damned dead..well.thats besides the point..i rmb last time when i used to sit by the piano, thinking up new melodies..fitting them to chords..well actually i think of the chords first..and fit melodies in.hahaha..but its always so depressing when one day you hear something similiar turn up as a pop song..it happened before lahh.zzz.and i cant say the music is mine..because that melody can belong to anyone..hahaha.its a matter of who claims it first..its not like the melodies i think up of are very special or nice anyway.hahaha

okkk!! i feel like recording look what you've done today.hahah.
ohh look what you've done you've made a fool of everyone...

yah..reflection time..i guess i've learnt alot from this week alone..wow.really..alot.hahahah..lol.im wondering how you did that..its really hard....you've taken the meaning of pro to a new level.

hmm.wanderlust is really a nice song..wheee.i will be here there and everywhere.here there and everywhere!!!

ciao

i had a great day

2008-02-27T22:34:00.000+08:00

yeah right..

dream on guys.

byebye

havent done that in awhile

2008-02-26T21:26:00.001+08:00

what the hell..i cant stand this..

havent cried like shit in a long while..im sorry.

wanderlust..what a wrong song to listen to now..im sorry paul..the mood is wrong.

we started out saying all 4 of us wanted to go aj together..ended up.1 made it..1 made it through appeal..in the end..left me alone in aj...it feels wrong.

i'll miss you..take care girls.

light out wanderlust..help us to be free..

i was just overwhelmed ok...i didnt expect to cry..it just came and i didnt feel like controlling it.then once it started it cldnt end..it pains me to think about it...i cant believe that happened.

2 years leh..2 years....come on.

god give me strength please..i havent been so weak in awhile.

if i knew this would happen, would i have stayed? 1 whole week of shitting blood..ending up in disappointment..well..im in aj now.personal mission accomplished.but im nt happy.

i think i wld have...no matter how much i didnt like it.

ciao

remember to let her into your heart

2008-02-20T22:19:00.002+08:00

take a sad song and make it better...

hah..you're joking.better..im using trump alr tomorrow.this is it..all the way.

hey jude.hey jude.hey jude

zz..

bye

if only i had the strength you'd be completely accepting something else

2008-02-17T11:38:00.002+08:00

it has been an eventful week.i guess..hahahah.

monday was cool..didnt go to school on tuesday.no one wld believe me reason.well..i was gonna pon anyway..but that thing happened..and.just nice lo!! wednesday..went to school as usual.uneventful.except for the coincidence! thursday.val's day..wah.thanks for all the presents.i feel so bad..hahahaha.friday.rocked.

friday.wasnt fun leh.i mean.school wasnt fun.the fun thing was going back to hc..its the place where im just another hc..saw so many ballers.i use nick la..in case some of you dont want to be named.lOL! polar bear and penguin, the ji, strong, kangkang, eddy, ricky, moley (but he didnt see me), wang (aiiiiya!), gys, ye ye, lao niu.forgot whether still got..dont think so..omg i love them so much! hahahaha.too bad i didnt see everyone.ah lu!! daniel!! big salty!! hahhaha.and of course.theres one guy i wldnt see no matter how many times i go..sh.zz..i guess we wont be seeing much of him luh..

haahaha.random abit.其实，我们四巳班的同学，智商都不低嘛，就不过是懒了一点嘛!! 不是,应该说是非常非常懒..记得以前韩老师说的话吗?他说,你们又烂又懒...烂, 是因为懒..哈哈哈哈

deceivingly fast..i love that term!

ciao

finally, im letting go of all my downer thoughts

2008-02-09T23:53:00.000+08:00

wah..super tired..can barely keep my freaking eyes open..today was gay.

i woke up at 7..felt really dumb..so i thought i might take a small nap till 7.30, then head for school to play bball..ended up waking up at 8.15...chionged to school.played a match with alumni..went to jihao's house..stayed awhile..took some food.went to town.left town went to mrs tay's house.ate dinner, slacked.had 2 mouths of diluted vodka.came home.haha.not bad la

damn it man.i injured my freaking left foot.it didnt hurt this much before la..i shld change shoes man..now i knw how it feels like to play bball with a smaller sized shoe..zz

im listening to blind.lol..not a bad song.i mean..ya.i knew it long ago.but relistening to it over and over again.its not bad man.hahahah.

ok man..today was quite bad.50 situps first then sleep la.i guess..zz.ahhh.i havent practised the piano.damn..zzz.ehhhh..sian leh sian leh.ahhh.eh.i forgot what i wanted to say alr leh.

鸡蛋啊，太笨了。。啊！！烦啊！真真假假，假假真真。。我怎么知道什么是真的？超笨的。真得不知道啦。我也该开始戒骗。。不断地骗人，令我自己不断怀疑大家。实在太烦了。。不知道大家是否是说实话，还是骗人的技术太高超。好烦啊。我是不爽的。。非常不爽。本来今晚不像回来了。。直接在南四家过夜。谁知道，母亲坚决不肯让我过夜，硬硬要我回家耶。。没办法啦。。咳。我是怎么了。。以前，骗人或敷衍人都不眨眼的。现在，我骗人还会惭愧喔！烦啊。。我变了不少啊。。感觉上好像是变好了。我想看自己有多久不用说慌。。每一个谎言都需要更多谎言来掩饰。。我好累啊。。骗人骗到累了。。不行了。

再见

then you begin, to make it better!

2008-02-07T22:37:00.001+08:00

yeahh..im back from msia..rather crazy.

yesterday had concert in school.like wth? ok.it was just performances.not bad la.i mean...let it be! too bad they didnt sound like paul..odac song..wah..super nice.then.after that.wah..damn dumb..ji dan gao..

went to malaysia anyway..just as always..hahaha.it was great..

im smarter than that man..hahahaha.really..im not kidding.

ciao

then you begin, to make it better!

2008-02-07T22:37:00.000+08:00

words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup..

2008-02-03T16:37:00.000+08:00

what to do now? hahhahaha.maybe i shld talk abit abt yesterday

well.it was great waking up at 7 to go play bball in hc.wow..like.back to the old days.lol! i loved it.hahaha..hmm.very few seniors turned up.only 6 of us i think.yuck.but it was fun la.even though i cldnt really play anymore..the effects of not training.hahaha.every action has a consequence.doesnt matter..re-train lo.hahaha

i dont wanna train on cj court.anyway theres no time to train there man..they got training, pe blah blah blah..only 2 courts.how to train?? haha.but i gotta train.its the only thing i have left.oh!! theres chem test tmr!! i've got a question for everybody..guess whos not going to study for the test?? =P

oh!! thank you joanne!! sorry i could only pay $10..hahaha.i'll pay you back the next time i see you! thanks alot alot alot alot alot.haha =) lets have games night soon lehh..i wanna play..zz.

cny's coming..its so unreal.haha

是不是缘？有没有份？无从回答，无从追问。。多久才算无怨无恨？沉默的夜好伤人。。为爱狂奔，为情所困，最怕痴心枉费一生。。有爱无缘，有情无份，难分难舍。。都是旧伤新痕。爱的旧伤能不能不再心疼？如果无怨无尤会不会再添新痕？这样一颗心反反覆覆热与冷，随着人海浮浮沉沉。。也许爱过的人总要带一些伤痕？是否幸福的路难免有一些坎坷？如果这一切都是过程，该不该等？

痛过的心，爱过的人。。有时不如孑然一身。梦是一道寂寞的门，旧伤新越陷越深。。

yesterday stretched on for so long, tomorrow feels like forever..it was a promise of summer.we sealed it with a kiss..this time i'll do things proper.how did it get to this?

lets have bball gathering soon..if we want to gather at ppl's hse i think best choices are ec, eddy or ricky..or....we cld go to school to play ball..then town lo! i hope ec doesnt have too much vodka at home.hahahah.bad for health man.

theres school tmr.eew.

ciao

2008-02-02T19:56:00.000+08:00

not bad leh.went to play bball today..zz.played like a piece of shit..nono.only that it wasnt even good enough to be considered shit..eeyer..hahahhah.no la.cld say that i didnt put in much effort.haha.yah.true..i didnt even show my new move.zzz.

haha.im listening to +44 again..no it isn't.cliff diving.155..all very nice.hahha.picts from today!

hahahah.i miss the place so much..big and comfortable.lol.

sian la..i dont even wanna study for chem test.like wth?? yuck.study for what man..i dont want to study.i dont even wanna play anymore bball for a few days.hahha.i just wanna slack and do some quiet thinking.yeahh..thinking helps alot.it calms me down.lets me think of several possibilities..it makes me more aware of the things happening around me..

do some thinking la.hahaha.it helps alot.

And this is not the time or place for us to speak like this And if I had the thought I'd never dream of it So dry your hollow eyes and lets go down to the water

haiz..maybe im amazed.im just tired i guess..ppl get tired..and im tired la..very.really.very..how long can i hold on.i wonder...i'll be just fine pretending im not, im far from lonely and its all that i've got..

i seriously need to get some sleep man.

ciao

baby wont you tell me why?

2008-01-29T22:06:00.000+08:00

there is sadness in your eyes..i dont wanna say goodbye to you..love is one big illusion, i shld try to forget, but there is something left in my head.

but im not the man you're heart is missing, thats why you go away i know..

today was a great day..not really actually..but.quite so..yeah.i guess..went to school..and did stuff lo.yeah.hahaha.but the jokes were really funny..HAHAHAHHA.kohlberg's brother, iceberg.hahahah.then there was the pencil case thing.hahha.oh anyway..i like.cut my hair..shaved.and.yeah.ready for tmr..yay!

sian la..still have a long way before feb 19th.like wth?? zz.sian leh.im listening to vitas now.without fail.opera #2..oh anyway.the juniors rocked the courts yesterday..OMG! WINNERS! HUA ZHONG! EHHHHHH!!!!!!

zzz.hahaha.somebody in denial that shes pretty man.

ciao

zz

2008-01-28T21:36:00.000+08:00

last night, i had an epiphany..or revelation, so to speak..hahaha.it was great.i understood alot of things..like.really..not joking.it was great.

i told my mum, i finally understood how things worked...i feel like i've matured, but there are so many other things for me to find out..more and more.i'll nvr understand everything that happened.hahah.

nt that i wanna make myself seem smart..but sometimes, knowing some things which nobody else knows you know can be quite tiring and sad..its when you have the ans sheet in front of you.and ppl tell lies..its just sad..ok la.i knw i deserve it man.cos i lie most of the time..its because of my lies that im paranoid..afraid that others are lying too..but i feel that trust has already been lost in this world..everyone tells lies, even if they say they dont..yahh..thats why i said.it sucks to knw the truth..at least if you dont knw, you can kid yourself into believing that what you know is true.

that was random..i mean.yeah..since last year.i knew alr..all along.hahaha

for now, im going to finish the rest of my days in cj slacking and playing bball..its time to start training alr.skills abit rusty.lol! today 3 pt percentage super low.zz..under basket was like shit too..but at least...i guess..i retained something of the past..the will to fight nvr dies.hahaha.i was just playing arnd the whole day, but when i ran full court, i felt like..omg..wow.im still me.我还是原来的我。

yeahh.im abit tired..cos i had to run through orchard to look meet kl and wil at cine.zz.those two ah..i play bball play until halfway suddenly come call me ask me go watch movie..guess wat.one missed call! lol.it was great la.i mean.4p brothers.hahahah =) it brightened up my day..

there is sadness in your eyes, i dont want to say goodbye to you.love is one big illusion, i shld try to forget, there is something left in my head..

now you want me to forget, every little thing you said

but there is something left in my head.

i wanna play bball again tmr.but theres conditioning.zz.oh yeah.err.yeah.yah...err.hmm..ahhh...forget it..

hahaha.here there everywhere..haha.i tell you la.i thought everything was going to be okay.well..life's like that? i guess?

eh heh yeah heh..whats my first choice???? give a guess, you'll never make it.

dont thrash talk if you cant play well..might as well save that energy to train and improve la.

im ready..im ready to go.i realised..this place doesnt have much for me to rmb actually..just a bunch of lies.

hahaha.ehh.sister, remember the amnesia i hoped for last year? hahah..i didnt really get it.my comp crashed la.but thats not really amnesia huh..i wish for amnesia this year.but not in the form of comp crash.

the past month has been so...unreal.yeah

ciao

nobody really cares

2008-01-27T16:20:00.000+08:00

here, there and everywhere...lol i just realised that alot of things.

firstly, i havent trained in a long time...must start soon.zz..since im moving on.no matter where im going, i'll continue playing ball..havent played for so long la..im starting to feel that bball is really really my life..i mean..i knew that long ago.but its a confirmation..haha <3 (-)--(-)

i'll choose in 5 hrs..no matter where i go, i'll train hard, do my best to make the team, and try freaking hard to make it to top 4..its my new dream.yeah.im watching tapes to learn la.new moves..blah blah.problem is.its not easy to play one position in bball..specialisation and trade doesnt work man..having played all sorts of positions in different games, its a little easier for me to understand the game..yeah.

to be a guard you need vision and precision.to be a forward you need tenacity and decisiveness.to be a center you need determination and agility.hahaha.of course, you need these for all positions --> speed, explosiveness, jump, strength, stamina, endurance.....it goes on.well.split the jobs.guards pass the ball and shoot.forwards mainly drive and shoot.the center is mainly in charge of rebounds and inside scoring <---wrong concept

bball is a team game..the center is not in charge of getting rebounds..its part of his job, but its not his sole responsibility..everyone has the responsibility of getting rebounds too..esp the forwards.shldnt just stand there and scold centers when they dont manage to get rebounds.well.centers are not supermen.up against the other team, you need a team effort to box out in order to get the rebound..same thing goes for passing and shooting.actually i believe in all roundedness..yeah.hahaha.

every position is impt..every job is fun..when you taste victory, you'll knw it was worth it..i wanna play bball tmr..hahaha

fun fun fun..eeyer.i dont dare to wear no.14 jersey to school leh..later kena bashed up la

zzz.

oh my crystal..

2008-01-27T14:31:00.000+08:00

i really dont knw where to go from here..vj sa aj cj.sian leh..anyway..about yesterday

gahh man.we must have been crazy to drink vodka..gahh..omg man..i think about it i wanna puke ok..i dont wanna drink vodka again for a long time..oh god.yuck.yuck man

i woke up with no headache..but i cldnt rmb much.i rmb we were at dhoby ghaut.got really nasty..i think i called some ppl.cant rmb what i said though.i knw i fell down because i tried to jump.very pain.i rmb we took the last train back to tp.where we took at cab to my hse.i alighted and managed to pull myself home.dad opened the door, saying: 酒味都闻得到，还说没有喝酒。。 i msged kl and wil to tell them that i was home.msged a few others to apologise for my weird behaviour..then went to sleep alr.cldnt take it.but it didnt feel funny.

woke up 6 this morning right..felt nth leh.i thought.great, no hangover..got myself a cup of water with abit of honey..ate a biscuit..arnd 8.i felt like puking.wth.i just went to the toilet bowl, felt the choking feeling.but nth came out.just abit of water and lots of saliva.felt a little better.a little.im ok now la.no more puking feeling..

i teared just now while singing school song..i repeated it 30 over times.in diff keys.first i did c major.then i decided g was nicer..yeah.but anyway.its really emo.i mean..for the past 4 years we sang that school song without giving a damn about anything..today is really the first day i start to understand the significance of our graduation.hahaha

anyway..dont feel like doing work.just wanna rest.play piano.play guitar.eat dinner.go sleep..dont wanna think.oh shit..still have to choose schs..heck la.really.heck.

ciao

yeah.

2008-01-26T11:45:00.000+08:00

华中零七年毕业的四巳班。。太神了。哈哈哈哈

be grateful we got those kind of results.hahahaha.remember?? every holiday we'd go.eh..we chiong playing in the hols.come back must pia for o lvls..all the way up till september..hahahaha.i rmb.we were still playing..zz.4P rocks.for life..mom told me: for the amt of effort you put in, you dont deserve what you got..be grateful.hahaha.im not happy la.cos.as always.yeah.i cld have put in a little more.that kinda crap.ya knw? hahah.

sian got piano later..but its okay.the thing is what comes after piano.last sat we had ig dinner..this saturday.HHAHHAHAHAHA.COME ON!!!

ATTENTIONNNN!!!! well..for ppl who want to knw the truth about stuff right..call tonight.because unlike being drunk the other day when i spouted nonsense about 23 pts.sorry to all who were worried.lol.i'll knw not to drink on a lvl results release.sorry ah..i'll be freaking drunk and wasted tonight.really.damn drunk.i wont be able to tell lies..really really.and im telling ppl this because.i think some misconceptions shld be cleared.hahaha.i'll tell.really.must make use of it wor.4P BROTHERS LETS GO!!! shit man.tonight only got 4 ppl.i think we'll be able to afford one bottle of absolut with some lime to mix..settle la.dont pangseh.no more lies tonight.i promise <--not a lie.as long as im asked about sth.i'll tell the truth.

tsk tsk tsk tsk tsk tsk tsk tsk tsk tsk tsk tsk....sad sad sad.cannt go hc.cannt go rj..my dreams..shattered leh.bo bian la..its like that one

cannt give up..cannt give up.im thinking about appealing to vj.but think about it.going there by myself.going home by myself.eee.so far..dont knw la.i'll give it my best shot.as in like..really.my best shot.hahah.shot is a pun.

一二三，华中！EHHH! 华中！EHHH! 华中！！！！ EHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

byebye

没有任何一种形容词能表达我现在的心情。。

2008-01-24T21:43:00.000+08:00

well..what can i say? i got nothing to say.hahaha.after all this time..hahaha.i really got nth to say la..im listening to blind now.yeah.so..the lyrics.

hahaa.shit results..now..cannt do anything alr.im getting moody.hahah.how can i get moody?? hahaha.humiliation.zz

well.i cant watch the show now.because it wld start me off.but its exactly what i did..

who would have thought man..who would have thought..i let myself down..

我不晓得到底有几个人真的关心我，在乎我。。不过就算没有也没关系啦。。废物一个。好伤心。不要轻言而弃。。我没办法了。放弃吧。猗与华中南方之强我中华之光，雄立狮岛式是炎荒万世其无疆。。

别怕。我不会自杀。。自杀解决不了问题。父母照顾我一生，我就算不自爱，也会爱他们。。
华中的朋友。对不起。。让你们失望了。我们大学见吧。我永远都是华中的校友。虽然不能与你们渡过这最后两年，不过我会时时刻刻想着你们。。有空我一定回华中。由始至终，我都是华中子弟。华中这座大山，永远都是我第二个家。队友们！我们永远是队友。十年后，每个星期六一起回华中打球。。我好怀念我们一起打球的日子。。尤其是我们的友情。我在公初真得找不到几个真心好友。

记得当年，我们打球的默契。。喔！想起来我就兴奋哩。哈哈哈。记得中二吗？哈哈。当年我们打球的乐趣。想不到今天竟然得分开了。我好难过。哎呀。不行。。再说下去我得哭了。。正在听三月九日。我好想哭。。

我要写出人间最美丽的歌送给你。可惜。。我没本事做到。

对不起大家。让你们失望了。
再见了公初，再见了华初，再见了莱初。。

我不再让你孤单。至少我尽力而为。没办法了。我去不了白城。

哈哈哈哈。。苦笑。不甘愿啊。

再见了。

没办法了

2008-01-22T22:14:00.000+08:00

好烦啊。

我好不喜欢别人骗我喔。。其实，我很讨厌被骗。这样好了，不如下次不要相信他人，就不会被骗了。被骗的感觉好逊啊。。鸡蛋糕的。老实说，其实我没有那么笨，心里也有种不想的预感。。但是，骗子的谎言总是好逼真。要不信都难。算了。我好为难哦。我不喜欢被骗，也不喜欢骗人。当我认真地说一句话时，一定是真心的。。烦的哩。还有专题作业要做。心情已经够烂了，还想怎样？被骗。被骗喔。。我做事认真的时候可以很可怕的。别把我当成病猫。算了。我以后不会再相信你的谎言。心里有种。。。伤心兼难过的心情。真的难以形容啊

你知道你这么不负责，令我无法再像以前一样对待这个世界。无法再信任他人。。我好难过。好像睡。。

我刚想起，若我要离开公初，在离开之前一定要跟新朋友说再见。

再见。。

-.-

2008-01-21T20:24:00.000+08:00

1. http://www.fileden.com/files/2007/1/28/703153/9th%20of%20March.mp3
2. http://www.fileden.com/files/2007/1/28/703153/1.%E4%B8%8D%E5%86%8D%E8%AE%A9%E4%BD%A0%E5%AD%A4%E5%8D%95.mp3
3. http://www.fileden.com/files/2007/1/28/703153/Track%206%20-%20Ge%20Qian.mp3

凡是做事都要认真去做。要有目标，不过不要去想后果。打球的时候，赢得观念，要放在肚子里。。脑子里，应该只有打球。

不要轻言而弃，否则对不起自己。

嘿嘿！！我并没有把那件事放在心上。说实在的，只是一种鼓励。真的没关系啦。我不计较这种东西的。懂吗？哈哈哈哈。真的真的没关系啦。我真的真的真的真的没放在心上哩。真的真的真的真的没关系啦。哈哈哈。说真的！！我像是不明事理的人吗？哈哈。不是吧。别客气了。真的真的真的真的真的真的真的真的没关系！！我知道你心里不好受，不过我不希望你觉得是欠我的。哈哈哈，我认为你不欠我任何东西！懂吗？哈哈哈哈
不要害怕会忧伤难过，也不要担心会孤单寂寞，你可以放心的去面对，因为我会在你身边，我的肩膀，是随时能让你依靠，你不用跟我多说些什么，你只要答应我，以后如果受到委屈，或是遇到难过的事情，告诉我，我会听的。。

星期四去送死吧。至少死，也要二十个人一起面对。我们这一班，算不上是十年好友，不过大家也经历过不少了。。希望大家能进华初，能进莱初，能做自己想做的事情。。韩老师常说：你们都是废物来的！不过，我相信他是口是心非。。希望我们能给老师们一个惊喜，让他们知道，华中零七年的四巳班是最强最强的四巳班。大家可以用歧视的眼光看待我们，不过我们心里都明白，我们跟大家没什么不同，只不过懒了一点罢了。。

祈祷大家都能拿到八分以下的分数。请主耶稣基督拯救我们。阿门。
人在公初，心在莱初，魂在华初。。好烦！
再见了。公初。。

omae wa saitei da

2008-01-21T19:32:00.000+08:00

做人还真不容易。。好辛苦啊。听说那星期四，会考成绩将会公布。烦啊。我的生命将变得非常辛苦。希望老天爷能助我一臂之力。。就让我回到华初吧。。求求你了。

其实，对我而言，华初梦为什么那么重要呢？我好像年朋友啊。。我的队友，同学。好多好多人啊。。尤其是队友，我好像年他们。好像年我们往年一起打球，一起“拼江山”时那种爽感。令人回味无穷。这将会是我生命中最美好，最美丽，最难以忘怀的记忆。。公初对我来说是种美丽的意外。真想不到，为什么会让我在这里交到朋友。早知道应该闭嘴不说话。有了朋友，离开时自然会有点伤感啊。好矛盾喔！美丽的意外。我觉得这个说法不错。美丽的意外。。还真是个出乎我预料中美丽的意外喔。

哈哈。我的华文真的是有失水准啊。华中的朋友读了请别见怪喔。哈哈。没办法啦，课堂上都没有几个人愿意以华语沟通。。还真够烦的。

我荒废篮球了。好久没有认真地打球了喔。好久好久好久。。不知现在是否还能如愿以偿地把球头进篮筐里。好了，该用英文吧。

today wasnt a bad day..yeah.rather good..results out on thursday.like wth.whatever -.-

莱初梦，华初梦。。都完蛋了啦。我现在是个等死的人。
放下公初的一切，的确不容易啦，不过有什么办法。。我本来就不属于那里。感觉上自己很像是个孤单的白痴。。早知道就不到公初了。不上学也没损失多少。告诉我，在学校学了多少？我老妈教我的都不止这些了。。算了啦。现在更难放下。早知如此，我当初不该选共处。烦的。

ciao

yo

2008-01-20T16:43:00.000+08:00

ok..yesterday was kinda great..but abit ruined by the lack of bball playing.yeah

in the morning, i went to school..wanted to play bball, but seeing the court filled with ppl from the champion team, i didnt dare and didnt want to join in..basically, i went to school.walked to the courts.saw pros playing.decided to go home.walked to nanyang bus stop.took a bus.went home.yeah..

after reaching home i did some situps..then started to practise secret..so noob la..learn like 1 week alr.still cannt do the whole song..zz..but actually most of the time i spent was practising the nice nice part which i like.hahah.the one which sounds really peaceful.yeah.hahaha.slacked arnd abit.fell asleep at 1+ i think.woke up.it was 3..i shld have woke up alot earlier.cos i received like.5 messages while asleep.hey jude was playing all the time i think.hahah.yeah.anyway.went for piano lesson then to ig dinner lo..hahaha

zz..very sian.after all those jio-ing and stuff.only 12 turned up.thats.half? yeah i think so.nvm la.it was actually quite lucky that there were even 12.hahah.what can i say.we had fun i guess.lol

yeahhh..time to go.i wanna slack.

不要轻言放弃，否则对不起自己。。这句话，不是每次都能说的吧。。我开始有点怀疑啊，自强不息永远是对的吗？己利利人，己达达人。。这些都是校训，不过不一定每次都是对的吧。。怎么可能每次都对呢？比如说在球赛里，己利利人，己达达人不太可能办到。。你大可以说，双方不一定要赢啊，从球赛当中也能学到其他重要的道理。。这样也可以算几利利人，己达达人啊！不过你想想看，哪儿有队伍是上场去输球的。。若要输球不如不打。每个人都想尝到胜利的滋味，不过事实胜于雄辩。。不可能有两个赢家。比赛当中，强中自有强中首，一山还有一山高，一定分得出胜负，一定要定输赢。在这种情况下，如何己利利人，己达达人，己所不欲，勿施于人？不可能的。。

接受现实吧，一定有人会输。哪儿有大家都赢的原理。。荒谬。赢，也只能在其他方面上赢。。

ciao

hahah

2008-01-19T08:19:00.000+08:00

cldnt blog well last night.was under the influence of some mild alcohol.haha

anyway..the past week has really been great..but tiring too.haha.eh shit.i must finish quick.10 mins later mus go play bball alr.

i dont think i'll be staying on..yeah.shldnt be..so happy la.hmm..i think most of my ig and classmates have joined their ccas alr..hahaha.i cannt join.cos i too shit alr.nobody wants me la..i drag the cca down. =(( too noob they say..too weak la..for those who joined judo..siao.yall really damn strong (y)..really too sterrrrong..judo lehh..lol.i so weak..judo dont want me.guitar also dont want me..they say im some noob.they asked me :"you think you can play g chord damn big ah?" hahah.haiz..cannt join anything.bridge club also dont want me..i bid bid bid until lose.cannt win a single trick.too bad la.volleyball say i damn noob.cannt even block the ball, still wanna join.haiz..sian la.too noob alr.bball was the worst..they straightaway tell me i shld focus on my studies la..dont play bball alr la.waste of time.you noob.play bball for what..well congrats to jiahong (canoeing) charmaine (judo) dixin (dance) meigi (co?) hahahah.eh..you all strong la.i show you all something ah............(y) strong.

oh my..im hurt =(
well, i dont expect much from my results really..because...i havent put in enough effort.so its only right that i get sucky results.hahaha

ehhh.no cca leh.so sad..hahaha

ciao

take a sad song, and make it better..

2008-01-18T22:32:00.000+08:00

zz..busy day tmr..bballing with the team..hahaha.then...piano lesson.then..hopefully ig outing...yeah.ok..goodnews.i managed to take the secret playing to a higher level.hahaha.abit faster with more dynamics.

zz..the version of hey jude i like the most is the one on the david frost show..yeah..that version is really nice.paul's voice seems so fresh and..new.in that version.much unlike the other versions.dont let me down....you have found her, now go and get her..remember to let her into your heart, then you can start, to make it better......yeah.

ok..summary of the past week..im missing hc.alot..im so glad i can play with them tmr..bballers.lol.yeah..shld get krongy a present.lol

至少现在，我把一些事情搞清楚了，放心许多。。我要的只是一个保证。我不在白城，哪儿会知道发生什么事。。只好信赖你了。哈哈。

我好累哦。。鸡蛋糕的。阿康的生日一到，我便会祝他生日快乐。然后睡觉，准备打球。好计划！

再见咯

2008-01-15T21:19:00.000+08:00

烦的哩。。真的。好烦哦！这个月我非死不可。完蛋。　我的电话不断传出嘿朱迪的铃声。。没办法，通知大家是我的责任嘛。。躲也躲不了的。好，只剩下一两个人没确定，一确定了我便能睡觉，好累啊！

烦烦烦烦烦。。心里好乱。白天还挺高兴的啦，现在居然心情大变。好恶心啊。好讨厌。鸡蛋糕的。。还真是无聊透顶。。烦的哩。

如说这些都没发生，那些事情会发生吗？哎呀，这种问题没有答案的。自己去想吧，我的好朋友。。怎么要吵架呢？吵架有用吗？意见不同是难免的嘛。。有些事情真的很难判断谁对谁错。见仁见智啦。。

己利利人，己达达人

byebye

hmmm

2008-01-15T18:36:00.000+08:00

i was planning on eating lunch in town tmr..but people seem to like it in the canteen cos of convenience -.- what to do? lol..canteen lo..i admit its more convenient lah.hahahah.

zz..today was great.lol..shld use chinese to blog about this.hahaha

有病在身的我今天没上学。。是食物中毒吧。哈哈，早上起来肚子好不舒服，所以到了诊去所拿药。今天发生了许多事情，细节我就不多说了。不过我好开心。哈哈！生病也能开心吗？当然可以啊！对吗？哈哈哈哈 =P 高兴咯，开心咯。。哈哈

ok..its still a long way till bedtime..im feeling okay le.after the medicine and stuff..i'll be fit for school tmr..actually doctor advised me to stay home for 2 days..but i dont think i wanna slack arnd la..i lagging by alot alr, nvr go school today.zz.somemore tmr got lunch, shld turn up luh, since i suggested it.yeah.

things i wanted to do for tonight

1. revise econs notes

2. try math questions

3. do physics question

4. try to finish chem tutorial

5. 25 situps x 3

6. 25 squats x 3

7. 12 calf raises x 3

8. 15 bicep curls x 3

9. 15 tricep curls x 5

10. practise secret's bridge till can play high speed.you knw..the part between the first verse and the cross hand thing..yeah..the peaceful part..very melodious one.that one..yeah.i wanted to practise that till i can play super fast.

things i cant do for tonight

5-9

though im really feeling fine now..but...mum says cannt do.lol.maybe i do wrist curls la..minimal strength usage alr..ok..not really.hahahah

i spent alot of time just awhile ago playing piano..i've played the bridge continuously for 100 times alr..but still not good leh..not fast =( zzz..finished econs revision.unproductive la.i cldnt concentrate today =))

hmm..school tmr.i must go..must..especially since we eating in school, if i dont go for lessons i wont be able to attend lunch..anyway im really fine alr..no worries.

lol =)

久未放晴的天空依旧留着你的笑容

nt exactly in a bad mood now..but i still like ge qian! so nice..hahah

hw time.

byebye

well..

2008-01-13T20:43:00.000+08:00

i dont like it when songs are sang in a jazzy way..i mean.i dont like the original songs to be sang in a jazz kinda way.its not that i dont like jazz.hahaha.

well.i heard 2 oldies today..really nice songs.hahaha.really very nice
1.Listen to the rhythm of the falling rain
2.Because i love you

The only girl I care about has gone away
Looking for a brand-new start
But little does she know that when she left that day
Along with her she took my heart

super nice.hahahaha.i really like it alot..very hawaiian like that.hahaha.because i love you is simply just damn nice..oh shit..i havent finished chem la..i feel like a slacker.oh anyway..concert was rather cool..but i screwed up la.haha.dad and mom came..they said i looked nervous.but i really wasnt nervous la.i mean, i've played in front of the whole cohort, and screwed up, what can be worse? hahaha..nothing much

bloody hell.im skipping chem tutorial wksheet first..cannt take it la..really cannt.im not in the right state to think now..i think do some gp first..tired of chem..gotta pia, but nows not the time to..alot of stuff to settle..haiz.

sian, i havent finished learning secret..im trying to like play high speed kind.yeah.

我真的不了解你啊。。怎么才几个月，一个人能变得那么多。根本判若两人，一点都不像以前那么开朗，那么好笑，那么有趣。。你这样，一个女人，让我欢喜让我忧，让我甘心为了你付出我所有。。现在感觉不同了。嗨。。

失望。

再见

hmm

2008-01-12T19:19:00.000+08:00

double posting in one day....well.i went to coro to meet the bballers just now..it was really fun! although we didnt stay for long, it was great to see them..yeah..hahah.who was there uhh..not many ppl la.err.kng, tan, lim, chong, phoon, ng..then after lim, ng and chong went home..i went to town with kng, tan and phoon..phoon went off to join his og mates.while we and tan crashed kng's og outing.lol..went to sing songs..

what the hell.i save money save until so happy, now all gone la.$14.40 wth? shit man.hahahaa.twenty dollars gone in a day..but it was really fun..his grp ppl damn enthu la.hahaha.all sing one.got yutung! hahahh.i had fun la.hey jude and yesterday..lol! great songs

四到五个小时的快乐时光，果然过得很快。幸亏今天能有队友的陪伴，不然我也真得不知所措。哈哈哈。队友始终是队友啦，一起练习，一起流血，一起流汗，一起流泪。。我们之间的友情实在是无法取代的。可是，就这样，一天过去了，很快我又要回到公初上课。嗨。。好无聊喔。队友值万金！说真的，我还真受够了。没办法啦，谁叫我在华中不努力，到了公初才后悔莫及。讨厌，好烦的哩！

well..if im going to organise an outing, i'll need schedules..and guess what?? i dont have any schedules..everyone wants outing.ask for outing.some ppl tell me which days they are free.but in the end, when timetable comes out it will screw up..so no point anyway..some ppl wan it on weekends, some ppl cant make it on weekends..haiz..what to do?

really up to you all la..im insignificant.

byebye

homework.

2008-01-12T09:43:00.000+08:00

doing homework is fun..but im not having any fun now..

look at this man..who am i now.who are you? retarded..

是我多疑了吧？没事？怎么可能没事？开玩笑。我也没那么笨，至少我会想。好无聊，好累。我想回到过去。

哈哈，我想回华初，华初不要我。我想去莱初，莱初不要我。我还真希望当时没被分配到第十七号组，认识那么多好人，现在还真有点舍不得。。没关系啦。天下无不散的宴席，虽然这将会是一个很伤感的离别，不过戏总会演完，游戏总会结束。该走的时候必须放下一切。。希望大家还能保持联络。你们这群人真是出乎我的预料。我本以为只有名校的人不会guailan，不会kaobei。。谁知道，在第十七号组里，我居然是最粗鲁，最爱骂脏话的人。说来还真惭愧喔，四年以来，大家一直不停地骂脏话，也不觉得有什么不对劲啊。该改了。

原本我真的以为邻里学校的人都爱骂脏话，爱作弄人，第十七号组令我从错误的想法中恍然大悟。哈哈哈哈哈！！我刚发现，十七号组的同学已认识十天了。刚好想起一首歌：十年。。十天之前，我不认识你，你不认识我，我们都是一样，坐在一个陌生人左右，走过渐渐熟悉的街头。十天之后，我们是朋友，还可以问候，只是较难开口，再也找不到谈话的理由，朋友渐渐疏远成为相识。

希望我们的友情会长久。有时还真奇怪，才认识十天，怎么感觉上已经好久好久好久了。。虽然这十天内我们有过不少开心的时刻，不过快乐时光总是过得很快。。把这次的经验当作是一种美丽的回忆也不错嘛。。哈哈，不在乎天长地久，只在乎曾经拥有。。能拥有一段快乐的时光，已算非常幸福了。哈哈，告诉我为什么呢？嗨，唉声叹气也不是办法，我看我还是尽快举行一次活动，让大家都能重逢，我看得出，大家都很喜欢第十七号组。。我并不清楚我们将来回到哪间学院上课，但我心里有数，这大概会是我们第一次，也是最后一次的团体活动。并不是我想感情用事，不过我们往往都得接受事实。。

上个拜三，大家互不相识。这个拜六，大家已经成为朋友。超笨。哈哈哈哈哈！若早知只有三天的时间，大家就不会那么安静了。哈。没办法啦。

好多人似乎对华中生有好大的偏见。认为我们非常落后，爱以华语沟通。我老实说吧。华中的设备并不落后。哈哈哈。学生也非常惯于应用双语沟通。

now you want me to forget every little thing you said, but there is something left in my head..michael learns to rock - that's why....its such a great song..so sad..

I won't forget the way you're kissing, the feelings so strong were lasting for so long, but I'm not the man your heart is missing, that's why you go away i know...

若你读到这里，你大概不是十七号组的同学。哈哈哈！

大家保重啊

再见

2008-01-11T22:26:00.000+08:00

lol.sorry for the title..but i think its quite apt.yeah.

today was great.i mean..yeah.lectures were fine.ahahaha

after school, celebrated jiahong's birthday..then i didnt knw where to go..so many ppl have trials and all, but i dont wanna go bball trials..my bball so lousy, get owned la.hahahaha.ended up i thought i wanted to go to town..took 132 with jane and dixin..i called my sisterrr at far east stop, turns out she was in school.so.forget it.rode all the way to bukit merah interchange.strong (y).dixin alighted at crescent..jane was so nice to accompany me all the way =) lol

yah..jane wanted to buy sweets..but i wanted to pee..so we went to macs to pee..ended up eating there.like wth? hahahaha.then talk cock awhile.and went to ntuc to buy stuff.and jane went to her friend's hse, while i went home.took 132.i wanted to alight at rtc to change bus, but too lazy..just sat to macritchie then took 157 home.hahaha.very tired..

hahaha.great..great.i cant go out tmr..cos theres like piano.wth? damn..i need to train soon...im starting air alert again..need a jump..but with all the injuries and stuff..its quite hard lah..

i never loved anything more than bball..but theres really alot to life..alot more than basketball and studies and girls..its really about how you deal with stuff and make decisions..some stuff hard to settle..its one thing to fight a battle by yourself, and another to entrust the war to your comrade far away..on site fighting is always better..im going to lose man...tell me how to win.

when no one believes in me..the only thing i can do is really to believe in myself..

有些人还真够执着的，就是不肯放弃。这几天，我有想过啊，放弃是否是对的呢？不战而退，是否是正确的选择？华中校训，己利利人，己达达人。我所作出的选择是否对得起老师的教导？你是你，我是我，你作出什么中选择我不知道，不过我希望对我们都有利。大家也算蛮熟的，坦白一点，对我们都有好处。

哈哈，为什么用华语？简单，新同学个个不习惯用华语。他们不一定会读得完这个长篇大论。对我来说，那是件好事。他们并不需要知道我太多事情。反正，多一个月，我们很可能再也不会见面，见面也不会说话。我对班级是没有什么感情，可是十七号组的朋友都算不错的。嗨。没什么啦，反正我本来就不属于英校，英校生个个人为华中生不会说英语。事实上，是英校生不会说华语。

我敷衍人也敷衍够了。该做会原来的自己。会打球的自己，喜爱篮球的自己。找回原来的我，不简单啊！在公初，我几乎每句说的话都是谎话，为了不要节外生枝，随便以三言两语敷衍他人。我也太没公德心了。

你愿意吗？愿意放弃一切吗？我也没话说啦，见机行事咯.

sometimes ppl ask me,are you happy or sad? i dont knw how to ans that kinda question leh.really.i mean.sometimes im sad, bt i try to coveritup by looking happy and cracking jokes..many ppl havent seen me upset or angry before..but maybe thats because i dont wanna look upset..

give up give up, let go let go..i think if we keep letting go and giving up, theres not much point in life anyway..thinking we'll be happier giving up some things.thats wrong too....well..too much to talk about now.im really tired.i have alot of things to freaking do..and i wanna pon piano tmr.must pon early.

byebye

finally, i found time

2008-01-10T23:52:00.000+08:00

how about you? found any time yet? hah.

take a sad song, and make it betterrr..remember to let her into your heart..then you can start to make it better.

hah..today was the start of our lectures.well..i gotta say.for math lecture was pretty slack..for now luh i mean...compared to sung, its really alot more slack.in a class of 20, with sung as your math teacher.you get picked on all the time, esp for weak guys like me, suck at math =(( damn sad...the only test i was ever proud about was permutations and combinations.which i topped.like omg? wth?? sung cldnt believe it man.top the class..wow.like..first time ever.this loser topped the class in a math test.but once only la..and i only won zh by like 2 pts..thats so..insignificant.nevertheless, its still an achievement la ok?? hahaha.anyway..math and chem lectures today were rather slack..i completed the chem wksheet i think?? im not sure, i might have left something out..all wrong one la..im just making an attempt to finish the only chem wksheet i'll ever get to finish..hahaha.clap for me pls.

yeah.maybe i shld take this time to clarify some doubts.for those who still think im gay..awww..no.im not gay.i have like 0 sexual interest in guys..its not 0.its probably negative.lol.im not bisexual either..do i have to make it so clear? hahahaha.I ONLY LIKE GIRLS.they dont call me 色狼 for nothing.hor hs? hahahah.i still cant believe it..a joke can spread like fire.wth? hahaha.im not gay, i was never gay, i wont turn gay..i'll never.im born normal.stayed normal, going to stay normal forever.

tmr dont knw how many million lectures la.i dont knw and actually dont really care.hahaha.as long as i learn something from it, i dont give a damn how boring it is..well..look at me now.im finally learning to display what a hc guy was supposed to display, determination for mugging.since i see all my teammates and friends waiting for me back there..i dont think it wld be fair to stay on in cjc..much as i have grown to like the school and my new friends.haha.its alot easier to make friends in cj than in hc..i can tell you.the ppl 10 times more open.lol.

i remember that time someone put on a skit where one of the guys posed as girls..and he was warned for that.they dont do that in cjc...well.i dont knw about which kind i prefer la.but to tell the truth, you'll always love your secondary school more.its just pure luck that hc is tchs and hcjc put together.lol.

i remember something the councillor said to me on my first day in the then 华中, the chinese high school..he said he once asked..why must there be a THE in frnt of chinese high school.lol? that was one gay question.lol.i loved it.during that time, we were still wearing the yellow pe and red pants.remember?? hahahahahaha it was so damned funny.but i thought the pe looked really cool then.hahaha =P

everybody misses hc..knw why? cos their facilities really..siao.shuang diao.for those new to hc, you really need facilitators to bring you arnd one..cannt say happy happy walk arnd..you wont get lost la, but you'll walk a really long way to reach your destination if you're unlucky..siao..i really miss everything.the track, the pool, poolside, the blocks, clock tower, library, kkh, audi, drama centre, salt centre, canteen..most imptly..bball courts.like wth?? hahaaha.bball courts i miss the most.rmb i used to visit the courts everyday, no matter how late it was, i wld just walk there to take a look..for those who knw..hc bball courts not really that accessible,its like.the lowest point in hc campus, so its all the way down the stairs..hahaha.i counted before..from the top of the hill, all the way down is arnd 7 storeys the height..not too sure la..arnd t here.maybe 6.and for hc..its not you wanna go home means go home..you have to crawl to the bus stop, and for me so unlucky, still have to drag myself to nanyang side..haiz..but.i miss the school.

lol.i blog more about it tmr la.yah..rockers.rock on.

华中on 3...ok ok?? 1 2 3..华中！eh! 华中！eh! 华中！EHHHH!!!!

我好想念你喔，你在白城过得还好吧？不要轻言放弃，否则对不起自己！要等我啊！我说过一定尽量去陪你的。哈哈

ciao.happy birthday jiahong =)

还真烦的

2008-01-07T19:08:00.000+08:00

老实说，我并不太习惯，也不太喜欢用华语写日记。不幸得是，公教初级学院的学生多数不以华语沟通，他们较喜欢以英语表达自己的思想。在这种环境下，我若不多运用华语，相信不久我将无法顺利地以华语沟通了。

这几天，还算是不错啦，交了不少新朋友。可惜得是，学校要我们分班。我老实说吧，我并不喜欢自己的班。感觉上大家都没有第十七组那么友善，与他们讲起话来也非常不自在。有些事情还真得蛮奇怪的喔！我与第十七组也只不过有三天的交情罢了，我怎么会那么积极地约大家出门呢？说起来还真怪啊！我也不知道自己为何那么做，我只知道十七组对我来说是一种美丽的意外。我是认真的！

被分配去公教，我本身并不高兴，也不满意，更不愿意！第一天，我到公教时，根本不想和任何人交朋友，也不怎么向参与活动啦！过了三天以后，我才发现自己好喜欢公初第十七组！

哈，我不在的日子里，你还好吧？其实我还真放不下心啊，我人在公初，心却不在。感觉很矛盾，一方面我非常喜欢我的新朋友，不过我无法用心对待他们。心不在焉啊。

四年前，我若去莱佛士学院，现在就不用那么辛苦了。真笨啊我。嗨！好讨厌，现在常常胡思乱想！！凡事都太多疑，对身体不健康喔。

好了，其实我也不是白痴，你敷衍我，我是知道的。世界上并没有忙人。大家都有二十四小时，问题是，每个人都会用多数的时间做自己重视或喜欢的活动。你敷衍我，代表你并不把我放在眼里，更不认为我很重要。对此，我是有点失望。有机会我们应该好好谈谈啊。

不闻不问，不理不睬，不听不想，认定自己应该关心一个人。哈哈。这种想法简直太笨了吧。
时间久了，我们迟早得走向自己的目标，不过现在是否有点早？我是认为早了些吧。你若有仔细读到这里的话，请你了解我的心情。这感觉非常难受啊。想管也管不了。妈的，还真烦哩！

well..if you cant read chinese well, or dont feel like reading chinese.the whole passage simply meant nothing..hahaha.it was crap lah.hahahah.unimportant,insignificant..summary of today = so so..

i went into town after school.it was damn dumb..seriously damn dumb.i spent almost half an hr looking for a store..and found that they didnt sell what i wanted.whatever -.-

他们说：“不要轻言放弃，否则对不起自己。" 真的吗？哈哈

tmr will be a sian day..really..i promise if ig17 nvr break up we'll have alot more fun..and i promise i wld nt talk cock all the time.eh seriously ah..im thinking of ponning la..if not because of my mum i wld pon alr..sian leh..

DREAM TEAM LOOK HERE LETS PLAY/GO OUT SOON

wahh..sianneh.

ciao

zzz

2008-01-06T17:14:00.000+08:00

ok.i have some time.shall blog abt orientation.hahaha

first day was really damn screwed.i really wasnt happy about it luh.i mean.yeah.i really belong in hc.i really wanna go rj.but i was in cj..abit 不甘愿..so just loner arnd until they told us to go to the hall.even then, i went in almost last.and i had only one guy from our grp sitting behind me.wanna guess who? hahaha.no prizes man.yeah..i cant rmb who was in front of me.lol.well..truth be told.at that time, i didnt think i'd like my grp.and i didnt give a damn anyway.

yeah..so.we were sent to play icebreakers..but nobody was overly enthu luh..everybody sian sian -.- i see alr also sian sian..then went for subj combi talk i think.lol i seriously cannt rmb.anyway heck.yahh.played some bonding games after lunch..hahaha.first day ended really soon.i decided that i really missed hc.and i went back to have lunch..

second day third day was seriously full of crap because everybody opened up abit alr..hahahah.yeah.so ok lo.not too bad lah.bloody hell.hahaha.

IG orientation ended really soon.i mean.before we knew it.over alr! lol.its bloody troublesome la please..now have to start knowing the class all over again.gahh.just forget it la.straight to lessons can or not? hahaha.im starting to get seriously sick of games.and besides, i dont think it'll be fun having 3 days to knw new ppl all over again.sian leh..damn tired.lol

summary.i grew to like my group.i think my grp not bad lah..impossible to find another grp like this anywhere else(duh)..nobody's exactly enthu about everything.but everybody - phil participates..not bad la.hahah.im glad i was in 17.really.truthfully.seriously.siao siao.sian la.i think i'll miss the grp.

tsk..trying to plan ig outing luh..so far got..9 ppl say ok alr.the rest i dont knw..eh now i think i'm super super sure, i'll miss the grp.lol.alot alot.hahaha.sian la..you all cannt understand how i really feel about it man..ITS SO TROUBLESOME..GAHH??

LOL WTH..MY DADDY TEACHING MY BROS DU LAN.>HAHAHHAHHAH WTF?? AND GUAI LAN HE ALSO TEACH..siao liao..the world is changing man..

eh dream team, outing soon leh..please.dont keep me waiting.i sian alr..so long nvr see you guys.lol.come crash orientation la.we friendly with cj team want? hahahah =P

lol..white castle is where i want to be..wait for me.dont run away..lol.

please..if i get 8 and below for o lvls.i promise i'll lie less than 1000 times per year..i wont scold vulgarities.i'll hand in my assignments.go for training all the time just like i did back in hc..i promise.i'll be a different person =(( just open the gates and let me into white castle! pleaseee.

ciao

retarded

2008-01-04T23:20:00.000+08:00

i left livejournal alone because i didnt like it..

yeah..i still like this blogskin alot.lol.hmm.about this week.monday i went to malaysia.tuesday was new year i stayed at home.wednesday was first day of school, posted to cj..orientation all the way till now..not sure if i wanna elab about it.hahah.it seems like these 3 days have been rather long.one day after another.tsk..i sorta forgot what we did alr.lol.

throughout the three days..i think i learnt quite alot.but when we were not doing any activities i had only 1 phrase playing over and over and over again in my mind.

fk off kojak
i cant stand it lahh.just the thought of it makes me pissed..
i wish i cld tell you sth about what really happened..but i guess that wld either bore you or you wldnt give a damn anyway..it takes 2 hands to play the guitar.it takes 2 legs to walk..with one hand, you'll have to play an electric guitar and turn up the distortion and vol of your amp.with 1 leg, you can only hop..you'll get tired soon and stop moving altogether..make some effort pls..

ohh.paul mccartney is really great.hahaha.i have a chance to restring my guitar..maybe i'll really restring it left handed.im learning jay chou's secret too.lol.piano..i feel so bad.i didnt practise my scales.

what happens when you lose faith? what happens when trust is lost? hahaha.i dont knw.seriously.

im wondering.how insignificant am i? do i get a 1 sf? talk about significant figures man..hahah.

ciao

hey jude

2007-12-05T12:24:00.000+08:00

i slept at 1+ yesterday.woke arnd 7.30.cldnt sleep.got up to play the piano.hahahah.i was trying to sing it in F.original key..but the voice was shaky..yeah.so i watched youtube..lol.all the ppl tried to hit high f..sad to say.nt many succeeded..its easy to tell if macca is singing..first trait.he hits the high f..second..his "dont you know" that its just you..hahaha.special one.haha

there was a girl who sang it in A major..surprisingly.most ppl sing it in Eb, E or F.the girls sing either G# or A..i tried A major..very tiring..and i cant hit the highest note..duh.hahaha.if i can then..no point girls get a higher octave.yeah..i can hit F alr..but i dont knw if its falsetto..like half half.actually its very difficult la.i realised..and.lol.there are videos on youtube giving us the impression that "fking hell" was being said in the backgrnd halfway through the song.lol?

i think its time..almost time for me..to leave some things behind...you cant carry the past with you into the future..it weighs more than its supposed to weigh.i realised how well ive been for the past few days..not very well.whats the problem..i dont want to swear about it...im just sad la..

on my old blog..i talked about this shit many times..maybe close to 50 posts..im sick..im tired..im down..i dont want anything anymore.i just want peace..peace..peace...peace please.pretty please give me peace.its difficult to be yourself.and somebody else..jealousy, greed, anger..can we not have that please..someone help..

what do you want from me?

mm

what do i want from myself?

hah

2007-12-05T00:19:00.000+08:00

once again.lol.many diff opinions.on how to make yourself happy.

they dont work for me.

i just shaved..again..i realised how much my hair grew in 2 days..and guess what..now i did a very very clean shave..i dont think the hair gonna come out soon enough.know what? i actually regret that.well you see..there were actually stubs on the left side of my chin..then..i was smart enough to do a side shave.and..look what happened..the stubs are gone..damn

hmm..i havent been through many sad things in life..everything i did..i did after thinking.this is one sad case.bloody sad.

oh and guess what..my left sideburn not as shaven..so.i have to reshave.re wash.re dry.haiz..damn.seriously..my condition not that sad la..but i really havent been through enough sad things to deal with this one..

hope it turns out well.yeah?

hah

2007-12-04T11:45:00.000+08:00

hmm..i made a few promises to myself this holidays..and some things to do.

one.brush up my hokkien
two.no vulgarities.
three.bonding with teammates
four.drive.
five.have fun.
six.not to tell a lie.
seven."compose" something.even if it is just a ten second riff.it must be unique.special.
eight.understand more about music..omg..so many mysteries.unsolved
nine.play lots of basketball
ten.grow a beard.
eleven.have a meaningful birthday.
twelve.cure the sleep disorder.
thirteen.stamina and endurance training.
fourteen.peace

thats about it.fourteen most impt stuff this holidays.what have i accomplished so far.no lies.stamina and endurance training.thats all..and stamina and endurance training was sort of a slack kind..well.we gotta start somewhere.

so what have i not done..hmm.no vulgarities were rather ok la..i dont use the f word anymore..i havent drived.havent had fun.havent composed..havent played bball alot.havent grown a beard.havent had a meaningful birthday.yet.havent cured the sleep disorder.havent had peace.

the beard part really not my fault la..i cannt ask them to grow faster..sleep disorder.oh well i guess it was really impossible to deal with from the start..i havent slept past 8.30 for a long time.yeah..very long.as long as i sleep before 2.i'll always wake before 8.30..if i sleep after 2 its a diff case.lol.even so, i'd probably wake up sometime arnd..9+..haahahah.since sec 2, i have not woke up to see the clock read 10 before.10 is the max..haiz..i rmb sec 1.i cld sleep at 9 and still wake at 10..so happy.i cant sleep more than 8 hours now...haiz.its not insomnia..cos i can sleep..i CAN sleep.but cannt wake late.

actually..all the thirteen things lead up to the fourteenth one..if i accomplish all of those, i'll get fourteen -> peace...

hah..im yawning alr.see the whole point about this is, i cant fall asleep.and yet i feel tired in the day.its only been 4 hrs since i woke up..lol.how lame.yeah yeah.

well.i have nth to do alr..i dont want to finish watching heroes..since its not finished..lol.i stopped at 8 of season 2.and maybe i'll start watching again when new epis come out..i dont want to watch till ten and find out that i have no more left to watch.hahah.now i really have nth to watch la..i checked program guide..today tv seriously.omg..so..i got nth to do..i dont want to play games..i dont want to go to town alone..for what? buy what? do what? i got really nth much i wanna buy actually.oh..but my wallet.spoilt.alr.1 year only la.so..what can i do..i'll just waste this day away..oh come on..tell me sth i can do..tell me..

damn..whatever..im just pure tired.who cares.

bad things happen all the time.accept it..live it.its just fate really.

make it better

2007-12-03T21:53:00.000+08:00

its so fast..the hols havent even started for me..seriously.i dont find this very holidayish..whats so holidayish about this..gah.i just ended exams arnd 2 to 3 weeks ago..and now.4 weeks.and its back to school.wth?

i shaved twice yesterday..first time cos i felt really..err.dirty.unshaven and all..second time..because i missed out some parts during my first shave..i thought i did a very clean one alr.moustache no problem..but i cant get the hair off the chin..i shaved the sideburns.but they grow fast like any crap.wht can i do about that..seriously, i want a beard..but i want the one that covers the whole of your face..sth like that.

http://home.att.net/~chuckayoub/Paul_McCartney_biography.html

sth like this one..but then again..i read that its really up to genetics whether we can have a long long beard..hmm.should be no problem from my mom's side of the family..i remember seeing how much chest hair my grandfather had..err.its sth i cant describe off hand..cos..its just too hard to do.hahah.its just alot..but from dad's side.im not sure.ok.ive never seen my father having beard..cos he shaves all the time.he isnt as hairy la.but i guess..if its genetics, i should be able to do it.giving it a count..i havent shaved many times really..i started shaving only this year.start of prelims..i dont shave every week..so i guess up to now.maybe 10 or less?ok la..not so little.10 to 15 times la.thats like..super little.but.hahaah.my hair is growing at an amazing rate now..at least..its growing faster than before..i shaved yesterday..it was clean.but now, i can feel the hair on my chin alr..even though i shaved it twice..really.great.

yeah.went out today...wasnt too fun.i wasnt feeling really great..esp since i slept really late last night..and had to wake up really early to pia theory..i had a terrible headache..the coffee sorta helped..nt alot though..hitman wasnt too bad..the whole point is..its one of the first nc16 movies ive watched.rather cool..since im not 16.yet.

hmm..have you ever looked at your life like..a ppt? saw everything flash by.poof..you're here..have you ever wondered? if you had a second chance, what wld you have done at that instance you needed to do sth? cld you have made a difference? you think so? well..i guess life is a one way ppt..you type the words, you cant undo it..theres no ctrl + z...gone means.gone.you can go through the slides over and over..you can never undo it.what you can do..is make the rest of the slides a good show..so that you can make up for the mistakes at the start.

well..sometimes people cannt take certain truths..and they hide from it.it takes some guts to solve problems..you dont just run away unless you've reached the limits of your ability to solve the problem...i dont even knw why im saying this in the first place..i guess all the free time has finally made me think...all these ppl i know..evryone of them.somehow its just fate...hahahaha.its just unbelievable..too cool.

hmm..when i was out today.i was at the mrt station when i saw something..someone actually.she was just some girl.some girl i cldnt rmb who..rather tall..rather loud.i didnt realise who she was..till i went out.came home..and when i saw that spot she was standing on hours before..i finally realised who she was..guess what.she was just someone i saw at rtc bus stop..very long ago.gahh.wth? why wld i rmb this..and its not something i rmb you knw..its just some sub concious memory.if i can remember something as useless as this..i cld have put my memory to better use memorising some chemistry.

someone insignificant, something insignificant..its all part of your life.

i really missed the times when there were no troubles..i dont wanna go into the "we went into hc as little weak boys and became men" part..because that is just so..cliche is such a cliche word to use.but seriously.i loved the journey.one thing i'll nvr forget..the way the team was formed..12 men team..the dream.the hopes.totally coincidental..i mean..

others, their teams are formed just so naturally.they choose where they wanna go.they get into their cca.they get great teammates.they form bonds.but ours? hahahahaha.long story man..our sec 2 team.my fav batch.eddy,kjh,dx,tzin,daniel,kng,ah lu,sh,ricky,laoniu,me,yw..what the? all in numerical order.of all these ppl.i think only eddy and tzin were in bball from the start.

jh ec3.dx ncc.daniel,kng,sh,ricky,laoniu,yw track..lol.although all different timings..sh was first? then kng.laoniu, daniel, ricky then yw..ah lu from canoeing.my case abit more complicated..you cld say.i was a free agent..no cca..nth.no goal in life..actually i had a cca.but i nvr went.one day i was into bball.suddenly everything changed..i love everything about bball and the team and coach.it was all crazy..now i think about all the trainings we had in sec 2..oh my..i rmb almost every training.what happened..what we learnt.hahahah.isnt it cool? but what was cool was..this team was assembled from nth at all..i wldnt say we were the batch who brought glory to the school.because truth be told, we didnt do that well..but, at least we started making name for ourselves..a turning pt.random gathering of ppl..i rmb we werent even gelled la during the start..everybody on his own..small cliques.no team spirit.it all changed..when we tasted victories and losses.together.

hahaha im tired..not only tired physically..im just tired.as a person.i want to feel that peace i felt a few days ago..like everything was just fine..no need for planning..no need for plotting.everything would go the right way.

hmm.my hair getting really long.2 choices.but actually 1.1st choice i have.wax/gel and style.2nd choice cut my hair..but guess what? super strong hold also cannt hold my hair..so? whats the point if it cant hold my hair up.i guess i'll cut it..i have to.before i leave.

cherish the ppl arnd you

bye

this is madness

2007-12-03T00:11:00.000+08:00

we cant compose songs anymore..whatever little riff you come up with, you'll just find that..maybe few years ago somebody already wrote that piece of music..i THOUGHT i thought up of a new melody..i mean..i didnt think it was exclusive, but at least i didnt think it was made into pop songs..i wrote that song (wrote is not appropriate, but i dont knw what to use) and a few days ago, i heard it on the tv..like wth.i "wrote" it before the song was written by the singer.i checked it..and im sure this isnt cryptomnesia..i have not heard that tune b4 when i was thinking up the little riff..i was just..yeah.lets play some canon base and see what i can get..then poof.hey..this thing sounds great..brings out an emo touch.and yeah..happy during the chorus.i was so excited..though i didnt tell anybody about it and i didnt want to like..show off..cos it really wasnt anything to be show offed about..it was just a riff..BUT..i was so proud of it cos it was the first err work that i thought up of.

turns out, someone sold it as a pop song..well how great is that.GREAT..totally.hm.well everybody has the right to think up of songs..the question is who gets to sell it..i dont.

ok..right now im working on sth new..but its just like cryptomnesia all over again..i mean..hows that.i start playing on some chord progressions.suddenly i think of something.IM LIKE.GREAT!!! take out recorder.quickly.record this beautiful thing..then after i finish..i realise it resembles songs ive heard..not exactly.but i am very particular about movements..not so much on the right handed running notes but rather the whole backbone of the piece..yeah?? so the backbone is almost similiar..identical.start from scratch lo.i cant stand playing something which sounds something like a pop song..then when ppl hear my so called "composition" they say it sounded like sth sth sth someone sang.

im unlike macca..he woke up with yesterday in his head..he had the tune..i practise playing my music.both on piano and guitar..i go to sleep DREAMING of practising.and i wake up with those same tunes in my head..how cool is that? not at all i can tell you.i enjoy making music..but i am despaired when i think about how different my piece has to be to make it special.

watching heroes..taught me quite alot..yeah.really.not only that someone can chiong an entire series in arnd 2 days..but also that..its not easy to change sth..even if you know its gonna happen.hahaha..i dont paint the future or bend time..but.some things, they are predictable..i KNOW they're going to happen..and yet i cldnt stop them..i knew exactly that THAT would happen.but i cldnt stop it..i cldnt at all..i saw it coming..i saw it coming long before it came.long long ago.i even told ppl about it..i guess they didnt realise that it happened.yeah..they simply didnt.

so actually im rather confused.am i walking into the future..or am i really creating my future in a wrong way.in other words..is the path laid out for me? or am i thinking that its laid out for me and that im currently walking down that way..thinking i cant change it..

well whatever.i dont understand alot..but at least i know his plot..the backbone of it at least.ok.

what ppl need is proof.they never believe stuff until they have proof..the best substitute is trust..its hard to find trust nowdays isnt it.

well..good thing is..i just saved my guitar..it was leaned against my comp table..and when i accidentally banged into the table.my guitar almost fell..i was lucky i saved it..second thing.a bad thing.there is this mosquito flying arnd..and i cant catch it right now.so im going to sleep before it sucks me.YEAH I CAUGHT IT..lol.ok so the above para was rather uesless.

today was fun..family outing day to queens.cool.

my bros' tcher was rather nice..she gave us free guitar strings since i requested a change.hhahahah.

yeah..

bye

dont look back?

2007-11-30T23:09:00.000+08:00

i was just wondering why i changed my blog title to dont look back.like.wth? for what.it was some random inspiration i got la.really..

so what happened today? i woke up.went to raffles place to meet jamie..i opened at 7up bottle.which happened to...explode? and got me wet and sticky. -.- when i got home, i just threw the clothes somewhere..i didnt put it in the laundry cause i didnt wan to dirty the other clothes..then mum told me that all the ants were going for my clothes..when on earth did these ants start appearing..i rmb that last time i didnt have many ants at home..nowadays, put a cup of tea on the table for 10 mins..see who you got sharing ur drink with you..

i didnt play much on piano today.mainly guitar..im very sure.i did at least 50 times of let it be solo today..definitely..on top of that..i found out a terrible truth..the guitar solo performed on the mv is not my one. -.- ahhhhhh..have to relearn.i wanted to do the one on the mv..cos it looks so cool and sound so nice..but oh well..relearning it wont be as tough..cos the movement around the same..lai2 lai2 qu4 qu4 the same few notes la..ok..omg.i found the ninth of march gtp tabs..ahhh.very confusing.cos the guitar provides base.and the singing notes are the right handed ones..then at one point, the electric guitar does the solo and that becomes my right hand.very confusing..found yesterday gtp too..finally.omg im learning it.

hmm..tmr morning first thing i'll record powdered snow..then..second thing i'll do..hahaha i rmb..play ge qian.then..omg.whats the name of that song..oh yeah.flights of fancy is it? hahaha...then..i dont love you.hmm.after that.i'll try your call.on guitar.then piano..by then..i'll be done having fun and it'll be arnd 12.if nth goes wrong i'll have my first driving lesson tmr.if sth goes wrong.i'll continue playing music.still got rehearsal at night.haiz.

anyway im like at epi 8 of heroes..lol.amusing show and exciting at the same time.but seriously..its gross.shit man.

for once in a very long time..i felt at peace with myself..no troubled and conflicting thoughts..no plots.no rivalry.no schemes or malicious intentions.and then i woke up.and found that it was a dream.as i expected..

i think ive figured out the plot..i need more time to think about it...bt then again..should i really probe into it? or should some things be left untouched? maybe, the more we think, the further we get from the truth..possible..very possible..maybe the truth lies right in front of my eyes..but i always seem to think that you cant get the truth without putting in effort..whatever..this is so annoying

byebye.

2007-11-29T22:15:00.000+08:00

rather gay day hey.

lame shit.today was usual.no diff from the rest..just wake up do shit..oh yeah.i recovered from yest.i can play guitar again.happy.i did another dozen of let it be solos.err.from 4.i sat there non stop till 4.40.playing let it be over and over again..lets say i did stop a little for toilet and sms..that'll be 10 mins..so.30 mins.each solo is 30 seconds. +-..how many times is that.2 times per minute.60 per 30 mins.but i dont think i did that much.so minus abit.at least.got 40.hahah.damn tired..but very happy.ahahah

AND..i tried to record march ninth many times..first time i was like almost succeed.closing le..then my mum started talking.i was like.AHHHHHHHH..second time.i record until halfway.i looked at my phone while playing one hand chords.i realised..omg.my phone not recording.-.-..i was like.aiya..really very..RARE.that i had a great version of the song la..ended up.the rest all not too good.cos i was really tired of playing that song..and i was pissed off..my neighbour kept slamming the door..seriously.pissed me off to the max please..slam door.im nt sure if im paranoid.but everytime i play, there seems to be door slamming.SHIT MAN.everytime they slam the door.i'd slam the keys.just press random keys to clash and produce some weird sound to show my unhappiness too..i cant stand it..its not like im playing at 12 midnight or what right.anw.when i play at 12 midnight i put silent pedal de ok..

haiz..then went out for dinner.but my dear friend....was late.for..hmm..40 mins. -.- nevermind.watched enchanted.l-o-l..the italian job..hahahahahah.i tell you.the best part of the show is the italian job..apple martini.NUMBER 1! hahahaha.hahahahaha.SERIOUSLY.italian job.yeah ok the story was..i was at the bus stop waiting for my bus to j8.which happens to be 88.and...as i walked to the bus stop.i realised.i just missed my 88 -.- waited at the bus stop.another 88 appeared in 10 mins..but this one abit crazy.wth.got see b4 bus cut lane like race car b4? he was driving his bus like a race car..rather.i think.his race car was in the form of a bus..omg.i didnt take that..and despite all these..i still made it in time.

wah..crazy shit man.really.no joke no joke.when i left j8..i realised that i missed 88 again.omg.cldnt stand it la.since i had nth much to do really.i walked on to ri bus stop to wait lo..hahaha.wasnt much of an exciting day..ok.tmr record 粉雪..done man..done.im gonna do it.no fear no fear.

yeah yeah.im gonna watch heroes maybe.or maybe i just watch a mv..and sleep.omg.OH NO..I JUST REMEMBERED..IM SUPPOSED TO SLEEP EARLY..tmr morning got bs.hahaha

okok.

its time to say.many years from now..i might be saying this.but i'll say it first.

byebye

十二月十五日

2007-11-28T23:22:00.000+08:00

几笨一下..hahaha.i think its rather cool la..2 whole years we learnt msian chinese from mr hon.but he nvr taught us all these stuff lo..i rmb when i was young my cousins from msia used to say this very often.hahaha.几步变宜一下喔! lol.i wrote bian as that bian cos they pronounced it as that bian4..lol.cool leh.brief summary of my whole day.at home other than 40+ mins at theory.super sian.

i was at home.playing guitar all the way..skipped breakfast skipped lunch.went for theory.and my mum brought my brothers out la..when i came home and found the door closed i was like.oh shit..im gonna die.hahaha.so lucky, i found my key.turns out mum was hiding at US due to the heavy rain.lol.

then..whole night spent experimenting with music till now..didnt manage to do anything special..except trying to figure out how to play the ninth of march guitar solo on the piano with accompaniment..super sian.have to slow down, hear, and experiment.i dont knw how to go abot playing the other songs.czerny's etudes..like.wth.theory hw.huh? currently.firstly i gotta settle tong hua.then...i'll play alot of other stuff.i always wanted to try yesterday.it seems challenging la.haha.hey jude got nothing la..haiz.too bad.just chords and some chromatic movement.minimal movement.fun song to sing to..but nth to play really.let it be is fun..ON THE GUITAR! lol.piano is just repeating chords.okok.forget it.im getting nowhere.i need to get out tmr.since im alr crippled.i mean.without my left hand fourth finger i cant do much really..all my hammers all depend on fourth finger.dont have means gone case.hahah.

ok..hmm.plans.no plans..sleep early tonight.wake up early.do a perfect recording of ninth march..wah siao this song ah..dont hear often dont find it good leh..the more i play the more i like.oh anyway.i tried out secret..omg.its not easy to mug that piece..cos i havent found the..movement yet.lol.its like..the notes flying all over the place la..cannt really get the feeling.hahah.

i feel so sad =( i cant play the guitar for at least a few days la..seems like it wasnt such a good idea to rush through let it be..shit.my finger really hurts la.and in the afternoon i was like having spasms..cldnt even type properly.haha.gahh..hmm.i was also reading the books i borrowed from the library..about macca..lol.i read this passage somewhere which said sth like..err.paul would be playing the piano.paul would be playing the guitar, the bass, the drums.everything..wah siao..multi talented person la.haiz..sad.

sometimes it feels really good to be doing music..away from the court and everything.but the thing is, no matter what.i still miss playing bball..i shall go back to play soon.i miss the courts alot..really.alot..hahhaha.i go to sleep thinking about these stuff.

aiya..these few days posts lengthy cos i got really nth much to do.hahaha.except for music.im ready.for ball.hahaha.haiz..so many first times this year..

first time i really played a guitar.the first song i really ever learnt to play was qing tian.then your guardian angel.first time i drank a whole bottle of wine by myself.first time i drank with friends.first time i went to the library to study.first time i went to changi airport in..god knows how long man..first time first time.first time.so many first times in one's life..make it worthy.hahaha

have fun guys.im exhausted..to the max..really.hahahaha.these few days.troubled over so many problems..very tiring.i seek solace in making music..YEAH! when i recover i promise i'll record a "no mistake" version of let it be guitar solo, ninth of march and yesterday.hahaha.yeah.im really tired alr..cant take it man.aiya by tmr.i'll finish ninth of march.hey.i realised..quite cool

its time to say

byebye

oh my..

2007-11-27T21:37:00.000+08:00

lol.new blog..not really.i just moved my old blog away..hahahahah.hows eveybody?

oh yeah..when's my sisterrr coming home? hahaha =)

these few days rather dull.people either working or training.cannt find people..not that im that free myself but our scheds clash..gah.im supposed to go to town tmr..but..there seems to be a small tiny problem.that is, the theory lessons i have at 4.00..hahaha.right smack in the middle of the day.cant go out early.nth to do anyway.not sure if they can make it at 5..i hope can.then dinner and slack..discuss later.haaha.ive been spending some time with the guitar and the piano.lol.

my left hand's condition abit bad la.hahaha.kept trying to do let it be solo..lol.no joke i think i did more than 60 or 70 times since yesterday..not that its alot.but for me its alot la.can? hahaa.with the rusty frets and dirty strings, my fingers now greenish.AND AFTER ALL THAT.i still cant do it properly..cos i learnt the wrong version =( the tabs not accurate man.seriously i trust my ear more..i heard the original song..THATS the one i want..lol.and i saw this guy do on youtube.very nice..except that he did it on an electric guitar.and i did it on a folk guitar changed into classical guitar because i dumbly bought classical guitars strings to restring -.- for me personally, the action abit high..as in the strings further from the fretboard.

the way i know it (cos i dont have an electric) electric has a lower action..so..easier to press la.thats why he play until so happy.although i think he'd stil have managed it with my guitar.wah sian man.i press also wanna die already.still have to do slides and hammers and pulloffs.and right.the pulloffs are almost like..cannt hear one.unless i try very hard.but when you're playing running notes its not easy..thats why have to train.hammer really no problem la.haha.but its the pulloffs.still..i managed to play it.since i learnt the wrong one at first.and did arnd 40 times with that, its difficult to change the habit.lol..

and the slides have made my fourth finger condition damn bad.hahahaha.next challenge, play it with right hand.lol.impossible la.try cannt meh? hahaha.im trying tears in heaven also.not easy man.then im going to do yesterday..lol.this one hardest one lo.how to do yesterday? no tabs for the version macca did..theres a tutorial on youtube but i dont wanna play that version.that guy tuned his guitar in d in order to play the song in the original f..sian.i dont wanna tune all that stuff.troublesome.i can do your call alr.hahaha.so happy.oh i realised dark blue no tabs leh.i mean.they dont have those impt roles i guess?

yeah..piano's going fine i guess.except that i cant do the czerny stuff.and all that lol.crazy..lol.my fingers often suffer from spasms now due to overplaying.hahah.when i put my left hand fingers straight and relax..they just curl up automatically like they pressing on frets.lol.funny.quite bad la.omg.im like super scared of theory tmr.im so dead.i havent finished my hw la.

i want to play while my guitar gently weeps.so cool la.the song.hahaha.haiz.these few days really abit bad leh.alot of ppl gone.not many ppl left in sing leh.i mean.jh hs yc.these people i go out with most of the time.they're gone.america china hk.kang and eddy got training.the rest so many of them have jobs.other than these, others get cooped up at home.hhaaha.suddenly right.staying at home not very fun alr.hahaha.im not gamer.so no point.i need to take a break from guitar.so..no point i stay at home.i cant play the piano very well either cos of the finger spasms..so.yeah.i think i shall go out after theory tmr. yepp =)

wah yc i tell you you better come back..alot of ppl waiting for you to rescue them.and right, if you dont come back ah im gonna feel like i wasted my favourite pick on you.lol.eh although its cheap, but its my favourite pick leh, you see all the decorations all wear off le.cos i keep playing mah.eh, if not because of you, i wont need to use my fingers to pluck the strings la.and get green coloured fingers..lol.i give you leh.you better come back i tell you.haha.

everybody stay safe have man.those overseas come back safely soon.those in sing..hahaha.see you arnd.

byebye