im listening to jiu4 shang1 xin1 hen2 now..and im feeling sad..really sad..very stressed over pi..last minute changes have to be made..and guess what..something has to add on to my sadness..rihui is leaving.back to msia for him..although i only knew him for such a short period of time..but hes been a great person..reliable and all..and it feels super sad to see him go.who knows when we'll meet again..

thanks for the support today cindy..it meant alot..

ciao

when there ain't nowhere you can go..

backdate abit..to friday..it wasnt too bad..can play bball properly alr..if i dont strain the right elbow too much when shooting..hmm..friday was a busy day..

i went to watch hc play nyjc at sbc..we won luh..nono.not we.hc won.but it wasnt a convincing win..jiayou guys! then went home with eddy..omg his hair is freaking long.you better get a haircut soon or you'll be caught..

went home to bathe before heading towards city hall to celebrate qiaoyi's belated birthday.happy birthday qiaoyi!! hmm..it was rather dumb la.we ate at some place..then went for ice cream then had to go home alr..but i had fun.

then..saturday came..i went for choir camp.it was great! full day camp..we did choreo for many hours under the hot sun..who would have thought that you could get a sunburn in choir.lol..

anyway..the whole thing ended at 10+? then went home lo..and slept till 8 this morning..haiz..time to chiong work..guess im not going for chem tuition later..or else i cant finish my pi..im alr quite quite quite satisfied with my pi..but still need to improve.

finished learning secret..i mean.like.finally...after such a long time..anyway errr.yepp..2 common tests tmr..

choir jiayou..quickly chiong practice for concert..after we make a smashing hit we can lie low and study..im in desperate need of catching up..after the recent tests, ive realised that it isnt that hard if you just study..well..mum ive changed.thanks for the guidance.

tsk..have to do PI soon..then mug abit for chem commontest.yeah..jiayou ba

what can i say..well.dont say anything..i think thats the best solution..

ciao

wow

got some time..hahaha.shall waste it..yeah anyway..today was..fine? hahahah.it was really not bad lah..i mean..it was fun..but it was also..hmm..dont knw

anyway..today is tan pei ting's birthday!! too bad she didnt come to school ;) happy birthday!! yeah! hahahha.the rest of the day was pretty much very bad..and i caught a flu..had to skip pe and choir prac..i didnt go to see a doctor..good game..paiseh anyway..my present abit..errrps.haiz..zibei.lol! i go make diy present la!! got abit of time anyway.hahah

hmm..tmr is going to be a fine day..rather fine..look..we're going to end official at 12.15...then gp makeup..chinese for chinese takers..and then math makeup..omg.its so cool! and after that..i'll see what i can do.hahaha.yeahhh..

ciao

why is that so?

this world is weird...sometimes.you see things coming your way..like a vision..but somehow you just do not want to believe in that vision because you dont think that you can be that accurate...somehow.things always come true according to your prediction..i love it this way..

sidetrack abit..why am i called robert? this has gotta be one of the funniest things that has happened in my life..i cant really rmb the rationale..i think it was about me always niao3ing ppl? lol..bird --> "bert" lol.

anyway..its time for me to sleep..hahaha.who knows........

im so tired.but there is so much for me to say..i shall summarise it..this year has been full of coincidences.like it or not.yeahhh..secondly.this year has been full of surprises...mostly negative ones..but it doesnt matter..because im here where i am now..right here.right now.

sometimes in life..its more about just doing your best..its about doing your best in the right way.

im very tired i can hardly type properly......

im going to fall asleep right here right in front of the comp..i need to go.

hopefully nothing goes wrong...hopefully...

everybody take care...

goodbye.. =)

pls smile..alot.. =))

carry on

i wanted to write something philo..but i think its not the right time.hahah =)

yesterday was a great outing..hahahaha.but it cost a bomb..wth..my canadian money! hahah.nvm la.not like i'll be needing money any time soon =)

well..i've only started doing my ap/gp tutorial and summation tutorial today..ap/gp almost done la..its the summation that is really super gg.and theres a test tmr.but it doesnt matter luh.hahaha.atomic structure.god bless me la.hopefully i dont screw up..actually..if i take the effort to do some work..getting avg results not too difficult..depends on what i really want..its only now that i realised some things in life..its within your reach, do you want to get it?

i've been wondering about something for a very long time..my doubts are finally cleared...it feels like a load off my mind..great! hahaha.dont worry it'll be fine! =) i'll try my best to keep my promise...but its not up to me.hahaha.

its strange that...at this point in life..i finally feel a sense of belonging in choir.hahah..that day when i heard them sing our theme song..i felt an overwhelming feeling..when all the melodies from the different sections mix together..its just like cooking a big pot of wonderful food..its like when you play super well as a team..you knw..actually..right now..the teaming i miss most was one particular team that coach only played once..me alvin ricky laoniu daniel..that was...sec 3? yeah.hahahahaha.i loved it.all 5 transferred in from elite sports.not too tall..not too short.multi positional..inside outside.running.lol.i loved it.it was total run and gun!!

hahaha.im thinking of my life's journey..hahah.how i got into hc..how i got into bball..how i bonded with the team..1j2j3p4p..today i was talking to leejy...and i realised..how much i miss 1j2j...the times we had..the shen2 class..the team..i love everything about hc..it seems like ive come a long way...all the way..to cj.to aj..to where i am now..hahaha.im listening to the choir theme song..its so nice..it can seriously bring me to tears..oh my god..i realised how long i took to type this post...hahah.

i got so much to say..so little time..no words can express how much i miss pae..no words can express how much i miss hc..my teammates.my brothers.when i think of pae days..i am totally overwhelmed..totally..more so when i think of hc times..

theres no such thing as no time..its your priority..now the priority is to go and try to learn summation.if i have ANY time at all tmr..i'll post what i really want to say.

dont worry..i'll try to make it be fine..i'll try to keep my promise..thats what i like to do..rest assured.keeping my promise to you will be one of my top priorities.. =) =) time is precious time is precious dont waste dont waste..shi jian bao gui!!

lol..anyway im wondering..why'd i have so much to do with short girls this year? =P

=))

goodbye..take care.

i dont feel any shame, i wont apologise

where there aint nowhere you can go..

running away from pain when you've been victimised..

tales from another broken home.

maybe i AM amazed..

sorry i cldnt make it on thurs to collect the certs or whatever..lol.im a busy man..joking =)

i cant make it on monday too..sorry ts..i end at...7.30 earliest..then tuesday.oh god 4.15...wednesday..5.30..thursday..7.30..friday my free day.tmd ji dan..i dont want to waste it collecting some bloody cert pls..not worth the time..so i've decided..i dont care.im going back on one of these days.mon to thurs..i dont freaking care.my friday is mine.so is sat..dont snatch it away from me..sunday is devoted to enrichments and tuitions and revisions whatsoever..not like the school admin centre is open anyway.ok..thats not the point..the point is..thursday and friday no lessons =)) cos got festival of life! hopefully practice is called off too..haiz.then i can enjoy 2 days..

yesterday was...omg.freaking.bloody cool.i just woke up..and slacked my life away all the way..till ph called me asked whether want go out.omg.i totally feel that in the whole bball team super super super super super zai..too bad the rest cldnt come...supposed to go sch to meet them.but i was lazy luh..so just met in town lo.kng ph jh me.hahahah.it was cool.slacking at ljs.then the lan came along..and did her art -.- and we "helped" her..then.the bball gang needed to leave alr..so go lo..went to queenstown there with kng and lan.omg..laughing the whole way..wth.i cant believe it.hahahahahaha.that was so cool =) then from queens take bus back to city hall meet wil..laughed a hell lot again..then from city hall go changi aiport wtf..when we reached there..the time was like..oh my god freaking 9..zz.sian.we had fast dinner then the rest of the activities from now onwards entirely secret.lol..but.im broke..broke to the max.my money.omg.OMG..good game.anyway got home.didnt want to sleep so tried solving rubiks..yeah.i managed to do....one side wtf..gahhh.still trying to solve the whole thing.anyway slept at 1++..woke at 8.wtf..had light breakfast.slacked all the way till 3..went for chem tuition.rocker! with ph and ljy..wj was in the class too wth..

i miss hwachong..i miss the team..i miss seeing you guys arnd the corners.and the constant pounding, poking or whatever things..i miss hc bball c div 2005..our batch's most bonded year ever..eddy ji dx tzin daniel kangkang lugou sh ricky laoniu me yewwei eechu ph zhao qy..aiya..everyone..and1monk.blah..we were never part of any achievements..but we never gave up on anything..i miss our playing.the fastbreaks.coach's teachings.

when i think back to the times we enjoyed tgt as a team..sometimes i'll somehow feel that i shld have worked abit harder..then we wldnt have had to part..and i wldnt have had to get out of hc to see the world outside..after i see the world outside..i gotta tell you.nothing beats home.esp a really big home..its too late to say all these..all i can say is..hc....is flowing in my blood, engraved on my heart..its in me..

anyway..back to impt stuff..zz.pi 1st draft dio gan..blah dee hell..have to do the second draft now..cos tues got pw.wth..hahaha.doesnt matter doesnt matter..never say die.lets go go go! thats the spirit.zi qiang bu xi.yong bu yan qi.

anyway i was watching a hc bball finals vid..which made me all pumped up..i love hc.go hc go go go..i'll be supporting hc.atw atw atw..

looking back at the past..i was abit too dumb..i shld have used my brains just that little little bit more..

on the other hand..i dont see a future...there might be none

nothing is for certain..there is never the absolute zero..but...no matter what happens....may god bless you all.. =)) dont worry..it'll be fine (thanks).. =)









dont ever weep..be strong..









amen..my best wishes =))

goodbye

Dedicated to the number 14