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last night, i had an epiphany..or revelation, so to speak..hahaha.it was great.i understood alot of things..like.really..not joking.it was great.
i told my mum, i finally understood how things worked...i feel like i've matured, but there are so many other things for me to find out..more and more.i'll nvr understand everything that happened.hahah.
nt that i wanna make myself seem smart..but sometimes, knowing some things which nobody else knows you know can be quite tiring and sad..its when you have the ans sheet in front of you.and ppl tell lies..its just sad..ok la.i knw i deserve it man.cos i lie most of the time..its because of my lies that im paranoid..afraid that others are lying too..but i feel that trust has already been lost in this world..everyone tells lies, even if they say they dont..yahh..thats why i said.it sucks to knw the truth..at least if you dont knw, you can kid yourself into believing that what you know is true.
that was random..i mean.yeah..since last year.i knew alr..all along.hahaha
for now, im going to finish the rest of my days in cj slacking and playing bball..its time to start training alr.skills abit rusty.lol! today 3 pt percentage super low.zz..under basket was like shit too..but at least...i guess..i retained something of the past..the will to fight nvr dies.hahaha.i was just playing arnd the whole day, but when i ran full court, i felt like..omg..wow.im still me.我还是原来的我。
yeahh.im abit tired..cos i had to run through orchard to look meet kl and wil at cine.zz.those two ah..i play bball play until halfway suddenly come call me ask me go watch movie..guess wat.one missed call! lol.it was great la.i mean.4p brothers.hahahah =) it brightened up my day..
there is sadness in your eyes, i dont want to say goodbye to you.love is one big illusion, i shld try to forget, there is something left in my head..
now you want me to forget, every little thing you said
but there is something left in my head.
i wanna play bball again tmr.but theres conditioning.zz.oh yeah.err.yeah.yah...err.hmm..ahhh...forget it..
hahaha.here there everywhere..haha.i tell you la.i thought everything was going to be okay.well..life's like that? i guess?
eh heh yeah heh..whats my first choice???? give a guess, you'll never make it.
dont thrash talk if you cant play well..might as well save that energy to train and improve la.
im ready..im ready to go.i realised..this place doesnt have much for me to rmb actually..just a bunch of lies.
hahaha.ehh.sister, remember the amnesia i hoped for last year? hahah..i didnt really get it.my comp crashed la.but thats not really amnesia huh..i wish for amnesia this year.but not in the form of comp crash.
the past month has been so...unreal.yeah
ciao
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