this is madness

we cant compose songs anymore..whatever little riff you come up with, you'll just find that..maybe few years ago somebody already wrote that piece of music..i THOUGHT i thought up of a new melody..i mean..i didnt think it was exclusive, but at least i didnt think it was made into pop songs..i wrote that song (wrote is not appropriate, but i dont knw what to use) and a few days ago, i heard it on the tv..like wth.i "wrote" it before the song was written by the singer.i checked it..and im sure this isnt cryptomnesia..i have not heard that tune b4 when i was thinking up the little riff..i was just..yeah.lets play some canon base and see what i can get..then poof.hey..this thing sounds great..brings out an emo touch.and yeah..happy during the chorus.i was so excited..though i didnt tell anybody about it and i didnt want to like..show off..cos it really wasnt anything to be show offed about..it was just a riff..BUT..i was so proud of it cos it was the first err work that i thought up of.

turns out, someone sold it as a pop song..well how great is that.GREAT..totally.hm.well everybody has the right to think up of songs..the question is who gets to sell it..i dont.

ok..right now im working on sth new..but its just like cryptomnesia all over again..i mean..hows that.i start playing on some chord progressions.suddenly i think of something.IM LIKE.GREAT!!! take out recorder.quickly.record this beautiful thing..then after i finish..i realise it resembles songs ive heard..not exactly.but i am very particular about movements..not so much on the right handed running notes but rather the whole backbone of the piece..yeah?? so the backbone is almost similiar..identical.start from scratch lo.i cant stand playing something which sounds something like a pop song..then when ppl hear my so called "composition" they say it sounded like sth sth sth someone sang.

im unlike macca..he woke up with yesterday in his head..he had the tune..i practise playing my music.both on piano and guitar..i go to sleep DREAMING of practising.and i wake up with those same tunes in my head..how cool is that? not at all i can tell you.i enjoy making music..but i am despaired when i think about how different my piece has to be to make it special.

watching heroes..taught me quite alot..yeah.really.not only that someone can chiong an entire series in arnd 2 days..but also that..its not easy to change sth..even if you know its gonna happen.hahaha..i dont paint the future or bend time..but.some things, they are predictable..i KNOW they're going to happen..and yet i cldnt stop them..i knew exactly that THAT would happen.but i cldnt stop it..i cldnt at all..i saw it coming..i saw it coming long before it came.long long ago.i even told ppl about it..i guess they didnt realise that it happened.yeah..they simply didnt.

so actually im rather confused.am i walking into the future..or am i really creating my future in a wrong way.in other words..is the path laid out for me? or am i thinking that its laid out for me and that im currently walking down that way..thinking i cant change it..

well whatever.i dont understand alot..but at least i know his plot..the backbone of it at least.ok.

what ppl need is proof.they never believe stuff until they have proof..the best substitute is trust..its hard to find trust nowdays isnt it.

well..good thing is..i just saved my guitar..it was leaned against my comp table..and when i accidentally banged into the table.my guitar almost fell..i was lucky i saved it..second thing.a bad thing.there is this mosquito flying arnd..and i cant catch it right now.so im going to sleep before it sucks me.YEAH I CAUGHT IT..lol.ok so the above para was rather uesless.

today was fun..family outing day to queens.cool.

my bros' tcher was rather nice..she gave us free guitar strings since i requested a change.hhahahah.

yeah..

bye

Dedicated to the number 14