hah

hmm..i made a few promises to myself this holidays..and some things to do.

one.brush up my hokkien
two.no vulgarities.
three.bonding with teammates
four.drive.
five.have fun.
six.not to tell a lie.
seven."compose" something.even if it is just a ten second riff.it must be unique.special.
eight.understand more about music..omg..so many mysteries.unsolved
nine.play lots of basketball
ten.grow a beard.
eleven.have a meaningful birthday.
twelve.cure the sleep disorder.
thirteen.stamina and endurance training.
fourteen.peace

thats about it.fourteen most impt stuff this holidays.what have i accomplished so far.no lies.stamina and endurance training.thats all..and stamina and endurance training was sort of a slack kind..well.we gotta start somewhere.

so what have i not done..hmm.no vulgarities were rather ok la..i dont use the f word anymore..i havent drived.havent had fun.havent composed..havent played bball alot.havent grown a beard.havent had a meaningful birthday.yet.havent cured the sleep disorder.havent had peace.

the beard part really not my fault la..i cannt ask them to grow faster..sleep disorder.oh well i guess it was really impossible to deal with from the start..i havent slept past 8.30 for a long time.yeah..very long.as long as i sleep before 2.i'll always wake before 8.30..if i sleep after 2 its a diff case.lol.even so, i'd probably wake up sometime arnd..9+..haahahah.since sec 2, i have not woke up to see the clock read 10 before.10 is the max..haiz..i rmb sec 1.i cld sleep at 9 and still wake at 10..so happy.i cant sleep more than 8 hours now...haiz.its not insomnia..cos i can sleep..i CAN sleep.but cannt wake late.

actually..all the thirteen things lead up to the fourteenth one..if i accomplish all of those, i'll get fourteen -> peace...

hah..im yawning alr.see the whole point about this is, i cant fall asleep.and yet i feel tired in the day.its only been 4 hrs since i woke up..lol.how lame.yeah yeah.

well.i have nth to do alr..i dont want to finish watching heroes..since its not finished..lol.i stopped at 8 of season 2.and maybe i'll start watching again when new epis come out..i dont want to watch till ten and find out that i have no more left to watch.hahah.now i really have nth to watch la..i checked program guide..today tv seriously.omg..so..i got nth to do..i dont want to play games..i dont want to go to town alone..for what? buy what? do what? i got really nth much i wanna buy actually.oh..but my wallet.spoilt.alr.1 year only la.so..what can i do..i'll just waste this day away..oh come on..tell me sth i can do..tell me..

damn..whatever..im just pure tired.who cares.

bad things happen all the time.accept it..live it.its just fate really.

make it better

Dedicated to the number 14